Tgif Treadmill Treats
Remember who I am now
I have had a lot of changes in the last few years, I have learned and I have grown.
I am a different women that I was that short time ago and I write every day with the hope that what I’ve been through would inspire others in the same situation to make the change.
I am no longer that women with the need to please, I am no longer that meek, afraid girl that would apologize for things I didn’t do because I was afraid of the consequences.
I will no longer let your words effect my heart or my head. The sound of your voice no longer has me shaking with fear, I realized now that all your threats about taking away my girls were just that, empty threats.
I now know that it is your problem that no one can do anything right in your eyes, that you are definitely not in control of everything and when your not you lash out at everyone around you.
I see clearly that you are a control freak, a narrossist, a man with an inferiority complex, mixed in with a napoleon complex . I know now these are all your issues not mine because you have made me strong, you gave me this thick skin, you made me open my eyes to the truth.
You pushed me so much that I learned that when it became so bad I didn’t care about material things, I only cared about my soul and how bad I wanted freedom. I knew what it was like to die a slow death, to cry every day, to be belittle and cursed at, to be called stupid and every other name in the book and I knew I had to leave to save my very life.
Yes, this woman you see now is strong, she knows she can and will do it on her own, she has things now all your money will never buy you, happiness, joy, peace,the love of family and friends.
I know the true value of self and love, I know I am the child of the most high God and you can never win against me again!
I truly feel sorry for you, for your are a bitter, petty man who will never change. But I like unlike you, have forgiven you, I have learned my lessons and moved on to a life I couldn’t even imagine. See you reap what you sow. ….
So if you think you have a fighting chance against me now think again… think long and hard… I’ve had years to toughen up, to become stronger, to learn how to fight from an expert…. and I have my God on my side, I know no weapon formed against me shall prosper, so you bring it on…bring it on..bring it on….
So today my friends, I write this so you will know that you can do this too, you can make a change, you can leave that relationship that is killing you, you are stronger than you think and there is a life out there better than you could ever dream of…I am a living testimony of that.