Thursday Treadmill Treats
Why I do what I do. ..
Someone said to me yesterday “Why do you put your whole life out there for everyone to see? You got stood up the other day why would you tell anyone that?”
There is only one reason why I write this blog besides that it is my purpose and I have to, it is to help others, to try to inspire others, to let them know they are not alone, that even when you think it’s so bad and there no where to go because you’ve hit rock bottom, to keep the faith, to know that I too have been in that dark place, that I fall on my face time and time again yet I keep getting back up, that if I can do it, you can also do it.
Believe me there are things I don’t want to tell the world like when I was lied to and cheated on, when my daughter was getting into trouble, the pain I felt in my heart through out the years but I want someone out there who reads this to know, it happens, it’s life, we all go through these things, it’s how you deal with them that matters.
My cousin said to me “You don’t realize how many people you touch ” I only hope to be able to touch one person, if I can do this then it is worth it.
We all put on airs for others, we wear a mask and others never see all that goes on in your life, behind closed doors. No, we show only what we want the world to see, we are ashamed, we don’t want others to judge us, we hold on with all we have to pretend.
I live a truly honest life, I fall on my face, I write about it, I laugh at myself, I get back up, it’s not like I am the only one.
I pretended for so many years, to be the perfect wife, the perfect family yet behind closed doors I cried every day, I laid in my bathtub every night drinking myself into oblivious to try to forget my pain. When I started to tell the truth, when I stopped lying and pretending, it was then I was set free.
I am free….I am happy. ..I am human. I am not ashamed, I could care less what people say or don’t say about me, I know who’s I am…the child of the most high God, his is the only opinion I care about.
So, yes I will go on putting out there, all of it, the good, the bad, and the really ugly in order to try to inspire someone else to keep going, to never give up, to keep believing in miracles because yes, I am Tinker bell as someone asked me the other day, yes, I believe all things are possible, yes, I always see the glass half full and yes, Virginia there is a Santa Claus. ..I will never change my child like qualities because I know first hand that anything is possible if you believe .
So today my friends, take off the masks, stop pretending, set yourself free, it is a amazing feeling. .. and I will be right here cheering you on!!