You have to do what you have to do to get by

Hump day Treadmill Treats

 

You have to do what you have to do to get by.

 

There are some days I don’t even know how I have the energy to get through.

If you read my blog, you know I am a single mom of 2 girls, I get barely any child support and so I have to work, alot… to make ends meet.

 

But I am nor have I ever been afraid of work,

I learned my work ethic from my parents especially my mother who worked the night shift in a dinner for 18 years, serving mostly drunks night after night.

 

I learned you don’t sit back and expect to get things handed to you, you have to work and work hard for them.

I can remember any free time they had, they would work on our broken down farm house we had.

After working all night, she would come home change her clothes and help my dad work on the house.

 

I remember thinking how does she do it? I know now, it’s because you need to do what you need to do to get by, you don’t think about it, you just do it.

 

I keep reinventing myself to try to make money.

I wake up every morning at 5 am, I am at the gym by 5:30, I write my blog, edit it and post it on four sites all before 8 am.

I then do professional organizing, I recently  added personal assistant to the mix, then decided to help people with their electronics to try to make more money. I recently added website building and social media to the mix.

I am self taught at all of these things.

 

I do hair at night and I whenever I can, I do focus groups or secret shopping and before the night is over, I post my blog on the 5 other sites I blog on and then promote my book and business.

 

There is nothing I won’t do to put food on my table for my girls. I am not to “proud” to do a job to keep a roof over our heads, if that includes working 16 hour days so be it.

 

I worked like this while I was married for my ex for free, all while feeling like I was in prison, this is a piece of cake. I get to come home to a peaceful home, filled with love and laughter, are you kidding? This is easy! I am truly free now!

 

Don’t say you can’t do it, that you don’t have time, you can make time for all other kinds of things, stop watching TV like I did, that frees up 4 hours a night.

 

I am constantly thinking of what I can do next. One day (soon) I would like to be able to do one job, just write and speak and I will get there but until then I will do what I have to do.

 

So today my friends, remember there is nothing you can’t do if you put your mind to it…you can do it, yes, sometimes it might feel impossible but what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.

 

If I can do this, you definitely can do this, just never give up…just believe. If you have to do it one day at a time, just do it. Keep your eye on the prize no matter how far away it may seem, no matter how far fetched it may seem, you can get there…you will get there if you just believe….

 

Tuesday Treadmill Treats

 

You can’t fool me

 

You can’t fool me, see I have been there, I have done that and I have put it all out there for the world to see.

 

There are no secrets, no skeletons in my closet, I have nothing to be afraid of and so I can tell you, I know what you are trying to pull.

 

When my kids try to get over on me, are you kidding? I invented half of those lies, I snuck out, I partied all night, no you can’t fool me there is nothing they are getting over on me…

 

When friends lie to me, do you not think I know? I was an expert liar in my marriage, I had alot of practice, 24 years of practice, I know that lie because I spoke them.

 

Do you think when people tell me their clean that I don’t know the signs. Please, I was an addict, I know the sneakiness, the motions, the jitters, the jonesing, I was there I know you can’t fool me.

 

I know that your putting on a mask of perfection to show the world because your too afraid to be yourself.

 

I know this because I should have gotten an Academy award for my performance of being the perfect family in the mist of disfunction.

 

Do you not think I know how to hide secrets?

I know when your hiding one because I had so many I was hiding, sometimes I couldn’t remember which lie I was telling and to whom.

 

The only person you think your fooling is yourself,

if someone has been there they know what your hiding and isn’t it tiring to have to hide, to lie, to constantly live afraid of what if?

 

What if they find out I am a fraud? If they find out what I’ve done in my past?

What if my life is not the perfect life, my kids not the perfect kids…hurry someone is coming over shove all of the skeletons back in the closet and shut the door before we are found out.

 

No, that was too much work, too much stress, too much guilt and worry. I am free now I have nothing to worry about I put it all out there, it’s done, I spoke truth over all of it and now it’s done. But don’t think I can’t see what your hiding because I was you…

 

So today my friends, I am here to tell you that you don’t have to live that life of fear, of constantly worrying about getting caught, set yourself free.

 

Live your life, live in honesty, let go of the fear and step out on truth… because your not fooling anyone but yourself.

 

Be the change you want to see”

 

” And just when the moth thought his life was over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

 

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