I can, I will, I must

Hump day Treadmill Treats

 

I can, I will, I must…

 

Yesterday I watched a YouTube video of a movitional speaker named Eric Thomas.

 

I love to watch other motivational speakers, to see their style, to hear their messages, yes, when you want something so bad you study, you learn, because  this is what I want to do with the rest of my life.

 

He is an unlikely motivational speaker as he is so real. He came from the streets, his both parents were drop outs, he was also a drop out, he was homeless for years when his mother threw him out as a teenager.

 

Yes, looking at his life you wouldn’t expect he’d be doing this, that they would be paying him 50,000 to 100,000 for a speaking engagement, that he would be in the worst schools in the nation telling his story for free, for our youth, who many of them are enduring the same things he had to go through, crime ridden neighborhoods, poverty, drug dealers, parents that dont care, he’s there giving them a message to never give up.

 

He was in your face asking real questions, how bad do you want this? More than your phone? Then your side ho’s? More than sleep? Because your dream has to be bigger than all of that. You have to want it so bad your willing to not sleep, not eat, give up social media, your friends who aren’t going anywhere, this has to be top priority in your life.

 

I get it when I was writing my book I could write for 12 hours in a row, I would forget to eat, I didn’t want to sleep, all I wanted to do was this passion I had inside. When I wasn’t  writing, I was thinking of writing, this purpose, this passion consumed my life, so yes, I get it.

 

I sometimes wake up before my alarm at 5 am because I want to write this blog, I cannot wait another moment to write, even if I never made a dollar from this, I would still do it because its my purpose.

 

Yes, you cant give up, it took him 12 years to get a 4 year degree but he never gave up, he never let go of his dream even when he was sleeping in abandoned buildings, even when it looked impossible to everyone else, he never gave up, he would say

I can, I will, I must… over and over… I can, I will, I must…

 

Yes, we’ve all been there, hit rock bottom, our lives broken and we’re hurting, we don’t think we can go on one more day, you don’t want to go on, its too hard, it’s hurts to bad, we’ve been doing this too long.

 

I am no different, read my blogs, I constantly ask when will this be over? When will I do this purpose, that I know I suppose to do, full-time? When will I be able to not work 3 jobs?

 

But I never give up, I might have a small pity party every now and again but I will never give up, I refuse to give up!

 

Hello! I survived a verbally abusive marriage for 24 years, I lived in hell everyday, I survived rape, all the people I loved dying,

I survived drug and alcohol addiction, I survived 2 attempted suicides, I  refuse to quit, there is a purpose for my life and it will come, until it gets here I will be saying

“I can, I will, I must”

 

So today my friends remember no matter how bad it is, no matter if everyone is saying your too old, not smart enough, grew up on the wrong side of the tracks, even if you don’t know how it will happen, never give up, anything can happen in a day…you could fall in love, you could stop being homeless, you can be a New York Times bestselling author, an international blogger and be on the women of faith tour…..

 

All you have to do, all you have to say over and over again is….

“I can, I will, I must”

 

“Be the change you want to see”

 

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

 

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Friends are the family you pick for yourself

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Friends are the family you pick for yourself

 

This weekend I was blessed to be able to hang out all weekend with my church family. Most of you may know I am an only child and we didn’t have a big family and I didnt get to know my dad’s side of the family until I was grown, so for me my friends were my family and they still are.

 

Sometimes we have families who aren’t behind us, who are negative, who have hurt you to the core, more than you thought any strangers could ever do and sometimes that hurt can never be repaired.

 

Sometimes we are going places and instead of our family encouraging us, they want to hold us back, they don’t want you to succeed, it makes them look bad, where is theirs? They feel they are owed something just for being related to you.

 

Sometimes like me, our families are far away and unfortunately we can’t be in each others lives as much as we want to.

(Thank God for Facebook as I get to see and talk to them almost every day!)

But not being together is tough and so this is where your friends, the people you chose become our family.

 

They are the ones to encourage us, support us, be there for us, with a kind word, a shoulder to cry on and to even give us a kick in the ass when we need it.

 

Yes, these are the people who even though they might not be blood, they still are family.

 

I am lucky enough to still have childhood friends and even though these last few years some of them hurt me beyond repair, I still have the ones who will always be there for me.

 

And even though I was hurt, I still open my heart to new friends just as I have been hurt in my love life (or lack there of) I still have an a open heart, because without love, there is no life.

 

If you have no family or friends, your not living, your not opening up your heart to help others, to give of yourself because your afraid of getting hurt again.

 

Look I get it, it cut me to my soul, to lose not only my  money and my best friend as well, last year but that pain is not going to close my heart, I know I will be hurt plenty more times before I die, that’s life, that’s just the way it is.

 

People will lie to you, betray you, stab you in the back but the way I look at is, its their loss, I am an amazing friend, I am your ride or die girl, I got your back day or night, just pick up the phone, I am there…this is your loss not mine.

 

I got plenty more friends who know my worth, you were definitely not worthy, so don’t let the door hit you in the ass on the way out!

 

Sorry, again I tell you, I am not Willy Wonker I don’t sugar coat anything!

 

So today my friends remember chose your friends, chose who will have your back, let go of the dead weight even if they are family.

See, real family are the ones who have your back, they are the ones you get to chose.

Chose wisely…

 

“Be the change you want to see”

 

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

 

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This is my church….this is my family

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This is my church…this is my family

 

This weekend I was blessed to be able to spend the whole weekend with my church family.

I go to what you might call a “Mega Church” we have around 10,000 members  and some people ask me how could I go to such a big church, don’t I feel lost?

 

It’s like anything in life you get out of it, what you put into it and I put alot into it.

When I first started going, it…the church and its members, opened their hearts to welcome me and made me feel so loved, it gave me hope, it gave me strength.

 

My Bishop’s messages was what I needed to get through another day, it filled the empty dead space in my soul. It healed me, it gave me the courage to leave a verbally abusive marriage.

 

So I wanted to give back to this church that literally saved my life, there was nothing I wouldn’t do, to the yearly clean up day, to getting involved in ministry, to supporting other ministries, to attending whatever seminar, concert, volunteering, it didn’t matter I wanted to give back.

 

And so this “Mega church” suddenly didn’t feel so mega to me because I started to get know the members personally.

 

I knew their families, their lives and they knew mine. I was only at the church about a year when one of the first memebers there, Thomas, who had always been so sweet to me, put together a team to help me move when I got divorced. His kindness made me cry but these are the kinds of people that go there, they are kind, the first to help out, give a word of encouragement, a helping hand, we are not just a church, we are a family.

 

This weekend we put together a surpise party for one of our memebers who as a single mom put herself through college, a huge accomplishment and we wanted her to know how proud we were of her.

 

On Saturday the singles ministry had our annual beach day and we had a fun filled day of music, food, swimming and laughing. Yesterday after church we had our monthly workers meeting which included lunch afterwards, yet another chance to fellowship with others.

 

That’s what this is all about showing love to one another, being grateful for the things you have, living in the moment, really appreciating the moment.

 

See I am putting so much into it because I have gotten so much out of it.

 

So today my friends, ask yourself what are you putting into it? Maybe that’s why your not getting anything out of it, maybe you need to stop taking, asking for and just give from your heart because you are so grateful, its amazing what will happen when you do…it won’t just be your church, it will become your family.

 

“Be the change you want to see”

 

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

 

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Do as I say not as I do

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Do as I say not as I do..

 

I write this blog every day and every day I am trying to inspire you …to believe, to have faith, to let go of your fear. I am here to let you know you can do anything you put your mind to, even when you can’t see out of the black hole you might be currently in now.

 

I know you will get out and I am a living testimony of how great it can be once your out because I’ve been there.

 

But I am human, I fall on my face all the time, I make wrong  decisions, pick the wrong men, I go through trials and troubles just like anyone else except I put all of my screw ups for the world to read, to talk about, exposing myself…but I do it so that others will know yes, there will be hard times and struggles but you have to have faith.

 

I speak it and I tell you it’s a practice you have to do every day, you have to practice and teach yourself, you woke up today, be grateful, you chose to be happy and see things positive, you chose to have faith, it’s all practice.

 

Oprah once had on the author from Eat pray love and she said while she was India she met a woman who had been praying  there for 10 years, she went back home to NY for a week for a wedding and when she came back she said how crazy and drama filled her family was, how she couldn’t handle it and how glad she was to be back in the asuram.

 

Elizabeth looked at her and said “So for 10 years you’ve  learned nothing here, if you had practice what you’ve learned here, you would have dug inside and pulled out the peace you were supposed to learning here, now your just running away from it, to hide here”

 

Wow, how true, you need to practice it, practice peace in the mist of chaos, it is not your chaos, don’t let it effect you.

 

So yes, as my dear friend Adrian pointed out to me,

I am not practicing what I preach and so last night I lite my candles, I got out my sage and I smuged my house, then I got my annotated oil and I anointed everything, I prayed for peace, to let me practice that I am not afraid anymore, that I left fear in my other life and I will not look back there and repick up my old habits.

 

No, I have new ways to deal now and even if now and then I slip and I want to run back to the past, I know what an incredible life I now have and even when it feels like the world is after you, even when life seems like it is out of control, be still and know God, your higher power, Buddha, the universe, what ever you call it, it has your back.

 

Let go the past and give it over as you cannot change the outcome so why worry, just have faith and believe.

 

So today my friends remember to practice what you preach, practice every day, practice over and over again and when you slip and fall, get up, cry, have a pity party and continue to practice again.

Remember practice makes perfect  ..

 

“Be the change you want to see”

 

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

 

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I manifested my life

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I manifested my life

 

The other day as I was driving home listening to Lionel Richie, it brought me back to a place years ago when I would be sitting in the car with my ex while he went on and on and on….for the millionth time about his “muscles” or his animals, his two favorite subjects.

 

I would zone out and dream about the day I would be free, I would dream about the house I would be living in. Even down to what it would look like, I would go through each room and envision the furniture, the art on the wall, the knick knacks place around it.

 

I would imagine coming home and the feeling of being free, the peace and joy I would feel of being on my own with my girls.

I imagined parties with friends, bbq’s, people dancing and laughing, the house filled with love.

 

It was so real in my mind, I was actually there, so real, it could make me cry with happiness. Yes, I could see it, feel it, touch it as if it was real.

 

Every night I would dream about it, when I meditated it was there I went to, it consumed my every thought. I didn’t know how or when but I knew as sure as I knew how to breathe that this was going to happen.

 

I remember being so desperate I went to a card reader and she told me I was going to stay in this horrible marriage for 4 more years, I remember yelling at her “4 more years are you nuts! I can’t survive 4 more years!”

But later on at the end of the divorce I found her tape, I listened to it and thought back, it was exactly four year. It took that long for everything to fall into place but I never gave up hope, I never let go of the dream.

 

Even on the nights I cried myself to sleep, even when I didn’t think I could go on one more day, even when it seemed like this was never going to happen, I still held on to my dream, I still knew it was coming. I never gave up.

 

I also manifested this business, I saw myself working in my own business doing something I loved to do, being my own boss, paying my own bills, taking care of my girls.

 

Did I know how it was going to happen? No, it didn’t matter, it only mattered that I believed it would come to pass.

 

See and all these years later as I am walking into my home, that I own, coming home from a business I built from nothing, knowing all my bills are paid by me. Walking in and seeing just what I imagined so long ago, a beautiful home filled with peace, joy and laughter.

That me and my girls are happy and taken care of, this amazing life that I wished for, hoped for, envisioned, is the life I am living today and it makes me cry with gratitude for all of this, I have today.

 

So today my friends, remember anything is possible, anything! You can envision the life you want, you can make it come to pass, you can do it…if you just believe.

 

Now for the next chapter of my life…a New York Times bestselling book, a international blog and a women of faith tour…yes if your going to manifest a life, dream big!!

 

“Be the change you want to see”

 

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

 

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Finding peace in your life

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Finding peace in your life

 

Every one is always talking about finding peace in their lives. Is there is chaos in your life? Is there is always so much drama around you? You never get a minutes peace and you wonder why is life doing this to you?

 

Is this you? Are you thinking you will never have peace? I have to tell you and you might like this, but I am not Willy Wonker, I do not sugar coat things!

 

Stand up and be accountable for your life, peace is a choice, you choose to have peace in your life! Simple huh?

Yes, you choose to have peace, Its up you.

 

I write a lot about choices because that is what life is about! Yes, things will get thrown at you, life is not always going to be a bed of roses! Get over it, it is what it is! But its about how you chose (there is that word again ) to deal with it,that will make or break you.

 

I write every day, I write about my story, about what got me to where I am today. It was my choice, to give my life to God, because I was broken and hurting,

I was lost and dying inside, I chose to believe I could do it, even when everyone including my own mother said I would never make it on my own.

 

I chose to be happy,

I chose to be positive every day, I chose to have peace and joy in my heart. How do I do this? I let go and I gave it all to God, I can’t do this on my own, look what a mess I made of my life without him. I chose to pray and let God worry, nothing changes when you worry, nothing! So why do it then? I no longer worry about anything!

 

I chose to be grateful each and every day, even when things are falling apart around me, even in the face of the storm, I know I will be alright. This is a test, to see how great my faith is, to teach me a lesson, but no matter what I know it will get better.

 

We all have seasons in our life, we have wonderful seasons and yes, we will have hard seasons. We will have to endure but its up to us to hold on to our faith, to keep praising and keep thanking for every day I am alive, to know I will be alright.

I chose not to complain about what I don’t have and give thanks for what I do.

 

Oh, here’s a big one that most people can’t or won’t do…. I chose to change, change me, change bad habits, change my surroundings, even change the people in my life, if that is necessary to make my life more peaceful.

 

Sometimes change is tough but without change you will not get to your goals, your dreams and your peace.

 

So today my friends, you say you want a peaceful life? Here are the steps to help you get there, now it is your choice to do something about it. Remember chose wisely because you only have one shot and life is way too short!

 

“Be the change you want to see”

 

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

 

***Now available***

My new book The blessing in Disguise

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