Go on…talk about me

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Go on….talk about me

 

I remember growing up and how people talked about me because I was different. I was a Tom boy, I related to the boys more than the girls, I did boy things like climb trees, played sports, caught fish, I was determined to keep up with them.

 

So as I hit my teenage years I obviously had alot of guy friends and that just made people talk even more about me.

In high school I dated the same guy from 13 to 19 but they still manager to talk…to say I was a whore. Ha! A whore? I was a virgin who was saving myself for this man who was my first true love.

 

But yes, the hate mongers didn’t know that or even cared to ask, they had their own agenda…to talk trash about me..I was different, they don’t like different, so I was their target.

 

As I got older I kept being different, I could dirt bike ride and fish during the day then go out in a hat with a veil, dressed to the nines thinking I was Joan Collins in Dynasty all while living in this hick place.

 

While everyone else was were in flannel shirts and shit kicker boots and here I would come waltzing in, not caring what anyone thought. I danced to my own drummer.

 

When I got married my ex was obsessed with appearances,

“What will people say?”

Was his favorite line.

Mine was “Who gives a shit?”

 

See I learned that people are going to talk shit about you no matter what…Hello they called me a whore and I was a virgin until I was 18! With the same man who waited for it, that alone says something all by itself!

They have nothing better to do than talk about you.

 

And even at this age, even when you think people would have grown up and changed…nope their are still out there talking shit…really? Grow up!

 

I guess that is why so many morons watch “The house wife’s of stupid”

They need to see other woman putting each other down, to validate their own agendas.

 

I have to tell you, it doesn’t matter if everyone likes you…doesn’t matter if everyone is talking about you…you need to know who you are, you need to love yourself.

 

You need to own it! Recently me and my girls went to my cousins wedding in New Jersey. His wife to be said it was formal, well we went all out formal, long black gowns, fur coats and all…when we got out of the car we looked around and no one was formal like us and my big one said

“Mom we are extra!”

 

I said “Baby hold your head up high, put your shoulders back and own your extraness! Own it!”

 

So today my friends remember to own your extraness….own your quirky, own your differences, it doesn’t matter the haters will still be talking about you…they have no life and they are mad you do, that you can dance to the beat of your own drummer.

 

They secretly want to have enough balls to do what you do, be who you are but they never will so they talk about you instead.

 

Go on talk about me…I got lots more for you to talk about…wait for it… wait for it……go on…talk about me…

 

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Only real men need to apply

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Only real men need to apply

 

If you read my blog you know I am brutally honest, I lied too much, for too many years, so now I put it all out there.

 

Maybe this is my problem when it comes to meeting men, maybe my in your face, real talk scares them away.

 

I was talking to a friend of mine who use to live across the street yesterday and he asked what I was doing, I said on my way back from my two jobs for that day. He said that is what he loved about me, my hustle and my honestly so I asked him “So then why can’t I meet a good, decent man?”

 

His response took me back and made me laugh.

He said because I had bigger balls than some men, that I could do anything. He saw me ripped out the whole house when I bought it, he watched me put in new floors, new fixtures, help built a patio, shed and fence and did a million other things by myself.

 

He watched me work 3 jobs, come home and cook a home cooked meal, clean and spend quality time with my girls.

He saw me go to church twice a week and give back not just to my church but to my church family as well.

 

He knew how I go out of my way for my friends and how I am loyal as hell to those I love. He watched storms come into my life yet I held my head high, how no matter what, I held it together.

He said he never saw anyone as positive as I was, never giving up hope.

 

He watched me give my love to men who didn’t deserve it, stupid, blind men who weren’t worthy of it in the first place. He saw me be friends with all my ex’s and be friends with alot of guys but never once be unloyal. He saw my big heart full of love and hope for everyone I meet.

 

He saw me put 100 percent into my blog, my book and the people who followed me and  wrote to me.

 

He said and I quote “Men are afraid of you, look at all you achieved by yourself, all you have going for you, how tough you are, tougher then most men I know and to some guys that threatens their manhood. They can’t handle a women like you. They have no balls…what you need is a real ass nigga”

 

His words not mine but they made me laugh and realize he is right, I need a strong man, a man that is not afraid of my success, my accomplishments, my pride in the things I can do by myself.

 

I grew up a Tom boy, I had no girlfriends. I am competitive, I have that I can do this attitude, in my soul because if you didn’t the boys left you behind.

And as much as I am a girly girl, I can turn in a second and go mudding, shoot a gun, go hiking or fishing, shoot pool or cusre with the best of them.

 

Maybe he is right…maybe I scare off men, maybe some men can’t handle me or my mouth telling it like it is.

 

Maybe I do intimidate some men, maybe…he is right, maybe I need a real man confident in himself, to appreciate me, to not feel threatened but is proud of what I can do. That can stand toe to toe with me, that is secure enough to know no other man could ever get to me if I give my heart to him.

 

So today my friends, I am putting it out there loud and clear, this is me… a loud tomboy New Yorker, a ride or die girl, a I can do anything chick, a in your face raw truth women with a heart of gold and I am looking for a real man who can handle me…but remember….only real men need to apply.

 

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What I’ve learned from the Faith Fest

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What I’ve learned from The Faith Fest

 

I was blessed to be able to go to this year’s Faith Fest, hosted by my church The Faith Center, in the Bahamas. It was supposed to be in November, the very same weekend as my cousins wedding in Jersey.

I was so disappointed that I wouldn’t be able to go. But as faith would have it, there was a horrible hurricane which cancelled the Faith Fest.

 

And so they rescheduled it for last week and I got to go. I always say everything happens for a reason and this was definitely for a reason, I needed to be there, to hear these messages.

 

I know we all have dreams and goals we strive for and sometimes we see others passing us by, getting to places we want to be or we think we should already be at.

 

We question and ask why? When will our time come? Aren’t we doing all that they are? Even more, yet we still aren’t there.

We sometimes get disappointed, frustrated and get down on ourselves, thinking when? When?

 

I am human and even though I know great things are going to happen for me, I still feel this way occasionally, especially lately….questioning….asking haven’t I’ve been through enough? When is my break coming?

This is where the signs always come in for me.

 

As I sat there in the conference, sign after sign came to me loud and clear….your dream is bigger, it almost seems impossible, there is no way you can imagine that you can get from here to there…but never lose faith, it’s coming, it just takes more time.

 

Know that yours is a special order, just like when you go to a restaurant and you order your meal first and people all around you, that came later than you are getting their food. Yet you still haven’t gotten yours and you question the waiter…he tells you, yours is a special order…it takes longer to do something that special….

 

I got it…I get it….I will just hold on…I will just have faith…I will be grateful for where I am now, I will keep learning the lessons I need to learn now so I am prepared for when it comes.

I will give thanks for where I’ve came from, from the lessons my journey has taught me.

 

So today my friends remember to keep the faith, don’t be jealous of others success, they deserve it, but their dreams aren’t as big as yours, yours is a special order and special orders take time to get to perfection.

Watch for the signs, they will lead you…your time is coming.

 

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You look good on the outside but you’re empty on the indside

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You look good on the outside but you’re empty on the inside

 

Yes, you look good on the outside, you’re dressing really nice, you give out the impression that you got it all together and everyone is impressed by what they see but really what is on inside? Does your outside match your inside? What are you giving back? Or are you just looking good coming to get your miracle…

 

Is that all your here for? Are you coming to church just to look good and for what you can get?

 

Are you telling your testimony? Are you sharing what God has done in your life? Do you give back to your church or your community? Or are you just here to get what you can get?

 

You are supposed to go and be the light of God, to share his word, to be a blessing to others but here’s the thing,

so many “Christians” are petty, backstabbing gossip mongers, looking down on the “sinners” because they think they are now better because they are “saved”

 

See, this is why no one wants to come to the church anymore because we have become a place of hate, of judgment and of “tho” are better than you because “we” go to church, “we” dress up, so we are the true Christians.

 

Just because you sit in a garage doesn’t make you a car, anymore than because you look good and come to church makes you a Christian.

 

What makes you a Christian is the fact that you can spread God’s word, that you can love one another no matter what their faults, their beliefs or their sexual preference.

God said that he so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son, it didn’t say he loved the saved people, so he he did this.

 

No, he loved the world, the whole world, sinners, saved, everyone. So if God could loved the world, why can’t you? Where in the bible does it say… your saved now, so God is letting you judge others in place of him?

 

No, it says love one another, the greatest of these are love…he who has no sin cast the first stone…I can go on and on.. it doesn’t say now that you go to church and you look good, your now better than everyone, that only the “saved” deserves love.

 

So today my friends, remember just because you see a melon at the supermarket and it looks like it’s the perfect melon so you buy it, take it home and open it up only to realize it is rotting on the inside, it is sour and it’s bad… yes, that is how some of you are…fooling the world by looking good on the outside. Make sure your insides matches your outside.

 

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Making up for lost time

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Making up for lost time

 

Someone asked me if I worked last week on my Facebook page, because I mentioned I was packing to go away again.

 

Now I know if your truly my friend, you would never ask that question because you would know I work 12 to 14 hours days. That some nights I get done at 10 or 11 pm to tired to even eat, just dropping into bed.

 

You would know I am the hardest working person you will meet, I work 3 jobs for God’s sake. But besides me wanting to ask if they paid my bills or if I was coming to them for money, which I didn’t. I had to reply that I work as hard as I play.

 

Yes, I travel alot, yes, I go out with my friends alot, yes, I leave the dishes and the dirty clothes to be in the moment with my girls, I live life large.

 

Why? Because I am making up for lost time, I am trying to cram all I can in the second half of my life because I missed the last 24 years being misrable.

 

I am filled with a peace and joy I couldn’t even imagined and I am not going to waste a minute, a second sitting around. I am going to see and do all I can for as long as I can and yes, you will say what you want, but let’s get one thing straight this is my life and I will continue living it my way.

 

I had to answer to someone for 24 years, I had to put my wants and needs away to give into his, my children, the “people” who may say some something. Those days are over, my kids are adults, I did my job and did it well, now my life is mine, about me.

 

I have a whole vision board of places I am going, things I am going to do. I am living my bucket list in living color!

 

I will not be like so many people with regrets of I should have, could have no, I will not have regrets, I will live my life my way without answering to anyone.

 

So if this bothers you, delete me because there will many more trips, including this one I am off to now, to the Bahamas for a church retreat.

 

And trust me there will be many more moments I will enjoy, many more memories I will be making with my friends and family.

 

So for all you out there asking if I work, my question to you is do you live?

Are you truly living your life to the fullest? Are you making memories that will last a lifetime and when that day comes when you are called home will you be screeching into the grave screaming “What a ride!!”

I can tell you that is definitely going to be me because I am making up from lost time.

 

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Looking for Mr.Healthy

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I am looking for Mr . Healthy

Being single in today’s world is a trip! Years ago when we were kids the most important thing was “Is he cute?”

Then as we became teenagers it was “Was he cute and could he afford to buy us a slice of pizza?” (Hey, I’m from New York, pizza was important!)

As you got a little older it was “Was he cute and does he have a car?”

As we got into college it became about “Was he cute and which parties could he get you into”

After college things started to change, we started not to worry so much about cute but about, would he be a good provider and would he be a good dad, could we count on him for stability.

Sometimes some of us made the right decision, some times not so much.

In this faze of our lives when so many of us may have chosen wrong so many times in the past…Hello!! I raise my hand over and over, just read my blogs, we are now questioning ourselves and the choices we made.

We awoke one morning to say “Is this all there is? What is my purpose?”

 And so we go on a spiritual journey to find ourselves. Some of us, like myself, read all kinds of self help books, we went to classes, got into meditation, started yoga, went back to the gym. We started

really looking deep inside ourselves to find what we want, what we need and to find who we truly are.

This journey took me four years, two years before being separated and two years after to find me, to like myself again, to be healthy and to be healed from all the hurt I endured during my twenty four years in an abusive marriage.

  It was only after that, when I knew I was ready to date, I knew who I was, what I needed and what is a deal breaker for me.

I need healthy, someone who went through his own journey, who is whole inside and out. I am not looking for perfect as I am far from that myself, but  there are things I want.

I want someone that doesn’t party, those days are long gone for me, someone that believes in God and goes to church, as that is huge for me. Someone that thinks their body is their temple and works to keep it healthy, someone that has a kind heart and soul.

Its not about the looks (okay, see it’s not on the top of the list anymore)

It’s not about the money (been that done that, money doesnt make you happy, trust me.)

Its not about the places they can take you or things they can buy you.

No, its about are they healthy mentally and physically, did they do the work to get there and do they know how hard the journey was to get to this place of peace and joy and what it takes to stay there, even through the storms of life.

I know where I am at and this time I will not settle.

I’ve been through too much and learned too much along the way to settle for unhealthy. I am not here to fix someone else, they need to have fixed themselves.

 So today my friends, find out who you are, did you put in your own work? Are you healthy and whole? Are you still carrying baggage from the past?

Then ask yourself, if so, if you did your work, if you took the long journey to being healthy, then why are you settling?

You’ve done the work, don’t you deserve the prize? If you don’t think you do, then maybe there is more work you need to do.

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Our church:Be it

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Our church: Be it

 

Everyone one of us plays our part in making up our church. We all have a part in how our church is and how we show the world that we are Christians.

 

But now a days the church is so divided, we have so many differences…we are we torn apart in our own Church.

 

We are suppose to take the message of hope around the nation, that is what a Christian is supposed to do.

Our duty is to follow the word of God, to grow, to tell our testimonies. Somehow we have forgotten this, some people want to keep it to themselves, like it’s a gift just for special people and not for everyone.

 

Who is the church? Well in my church,yes, it is large and some people may even say my church, The Faith Center is a “Mega church”

Yes, my church is large, but do I think it’s a mega Church no, because I am involved in it, I know everyone, I am always there when my Bishop asks for help or volunteers. I want to give back to this church as this church has giving so much to me.

 

One of my mom’s favorite sayings were “You get out of it, that you put into it” And I truly believe that. What are you putting into your church?

 

See the problem with the church now a days is that we have this stigma, we come off as “Holier than thou”

Some people in the church  think they are so righteous, that they are better because they come to church, because they know bible verses that, that makes them holier than thou..please…. the same people who are rude, that show no compassion outside of church but put on a good show on Sunday morning, yes those people make it look like we are all like that, that all churches are “Perfect” but all I can say is thank God for grace!

 

The reputation of the church is bad, no one wants to come to church, because they think they not “Perfect” enough, they are broken, they have done some really bad things, they want to change but these so called “Righteous” people of church scare them off.

 

Hello! My Bishop says all the time, that church is a spiritual hospital. We are all sick, all broken, we all need his help to heal, that if we had a perfect life we wouldn’t need God, yet so many church’s turn people off.

 

Do you know your here to tell your story, you need to say if he did it for me, he could do it for you…

Look what I went through…look at the bottom I’ve come from…but with God’s help look at me now, this is what we are suppose to do as true Christian’s, we are not suppose to judge, we are suppose to love unconditionally, we are suppose to share God’s gospel to all the nations.

 

So today my friends ask yourself what does “Our church” mean to you? What are you representing on the outside? Are you telling the goodness of God’s grace and mercy, he showed on your life? This is what being Christian means, this is what the church is suppose to represent.

Like I say all the time, the change begins with you…

 

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I was just kidding

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I was just kidding…

 

It’s been a few weeks since I stepped away from a situation that I knew was no longer for me. I knew that I had been down that road before and I no longer chose to do that again.

 

Sometimes stepping away from something always gives you the prospective, you can’t  find when you’re right there in it and these weeks have given me the prospective I needed.

 

I realized that there is a saying that alot of people throw around. It’s a shield they hide behind, to say what they actually don’t have the balls to say outright so they just give you a dig and then hide behind “Just kidding” or “Can’t you take a joke?”

 

I am the first one to laugh, hell I am the first one to laugh at myself, I do it all the time and then put it on here so all of you can laugh at me as well.

 

Ask all of my friends, I am funny and I definitely can take a joke but there is a difference between a joke and a dig, hid behind a ha ha.

 

That, I don’t think is funny, see I am the most in your face person you will ever meet. I am real, raw, and most of all, after being a liar for so many years, honest as hell now.

 

If I don’t like something your doing I am going to tell you, if something pisses me off, I am going to tell you, if you say something to me that upsets me, you better believe I am telling you.

 

I dont need a joke to hide behind, I have the balls to tell you right out and I respect others who do the same.

 

Please don’t insult my intelligence by telling me I have  issues from being in a verbally abusive marriage for 24 years, that just made me smarter to hidden digs.

It definitely didn’t make me less funnier, if anything it made me more funnier as I can crack jokes about my past situation and know that life is too short not to laugh about things.

 

So that we all know the difference between a dig and a joke, a joke is funny, a dig hurts, big difference, are we all on the same page now?

 

Good, now for all of you out there that can’t seem to grasped this concept, I will break it down, if more than one of your partners don’t seem to get your “Jokes” look deeply inside yourself maybe it’s not a joke to them…

Look for patterns, believe me we all have them, ask yourself  what is the one consistent thing all of these? You!

 

What do you think everyone doesn’t have a sense of humor? No, they do but you don’t.

 

So today my friends, look into yourself, ask yourself these tough questions, is this you? Are you in a situation like this?

Do you feel this way when someone does this?

Does the joke hurt? Is no one getting your “Jokes”?

 

My advice to either people is grow some balls!

Yes, I said it… if your the joker stop and ask would I have the balls to say this without a “Just kidding” behind it? If not, it’s not a joke. Or you just have none of your own in the first place.

 

If your the butt of the “Jokes” you need to also grow some and put your foot down, tell them and if they continue your outta there and then do it, leave. No one needs that much “Funny” in their lives.

Life is to short to stay for stupid jokes or jokers!

 

“Be the change you want to see”

 

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

 

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I got three jobs….Mon

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I got three jobs mon…

 

I joke around and tell everyone I am like a Jamaican “I got three jobs mon…”

(You have to say it with the Jamaican accent, it sounds better)

But it is true, I do. Last week my daughter said to me you love to work, I replied no, I have to work, I would love to sit on the beach all day and write, that’s what I would love to do for work, this I do to pay the bills.

 

Don’t get me wrong I do love what I do, I have incredible clients who I adore but to tell the truth, this…writing this blog, writing the book, this is my passion, this is my purpose.

 

While writing my book I would look up and realize I had been writing for eight or ten hours and it wouldn’t feel like it, that is passion. I am just doing everything else until this…. pays my bills full time.

 

I don’t think about all I do, I just do what I have to do, everyone in my family was hardworking, it’s ingrained in me, it is who I  am.

 

I didn’t get home the other night until 10:30 from a clients home. I started my day at 5 am at the gym then worked all day till then. It is what it is….I have me and my girls to support and I have no one to lean on, this is it, so I do what I have to do and don’t think about it.

 

To me this is a cake walk because when I was married I did all of this (Yes, three jobs) plus take care of 200 snakes,12 sugar gliders, 2 monkeys, 10 ferrets,100 lizards, 2 cats and a dog. I also on every Saturday took care of the lawn, the sprinklers, the pool and cleaning of all animals cages. Besides all the normal cooking, cleaning, grocery shopping, Pta, room mom, classes for the girls and homework, Hell, this is easy now!

 

But there is a balance in my life though, I do play as hard as I work, I try not to work weekends and spend that time with my girls and my friends. I go places and do things, I truly enjoy my free time and live life large.

 

This month alone I’ve had friends come in from all over the country  (Hello, I live in Florida everyone wants to come here in the winter!)

I’ve left the lawn, the laundry and my closet which I should be embarrassed being a professional organizer but I’m not…I left it all undone to make memories with my friends and family. I now realize what is most important in my life, living it to the fullest.

 

I realized that life is too short and that one day on your death bed you won’t be saying “Wow I wished I worked more” no you will be saying “I wished I spent more time with my loved ones, doing what I enjoyed to do”

 

All the money in the world won’t change the missed moments you lost. So I try to make sure I get to see every moment, that I don’t have regrets when that day comes.

 

So today my friends,  remember that no matter how hard you have to work, take time to enjoy life, to remember what the important things in life are and know life is way too short not to stop and smell the flowers.

 

“Be the change you want to see”

 

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

 

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Closet racism

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Closet racism

 

Recently I learned something about someone I was close to, something that shook me to the core as I would have never thought this about this person.

 

Maybe I am just naive, maybe I just want to see the best in people and can’t bring myself to think that people can actually be so hateful.

 

But this was out and out racism and was directed at two of my closest friends.

That and the fact that I heard it from them first hand, so I know it’s true.

I am thinking how do you hide that your a racist? Eventually it comes out, eventually it bleeds though and shows you for who you truly are.

 

What I am shocked about is how they held it together in front of me.

I say this because I have a gay best friend, my closest friends are 3 Puerto Ricans, a Native American, a Jew, my church husband is black as is all of my church family. My guardian angel is Nicaraguan and my girlfriend next door is Cuban, I have carribean friends, white friends..I have friends… I don’t see colors.

 

Yes, I have a melting pot of different colors, different religions, different ethnic backgrounds, different sexual orientations in my life and I love it. This is what brings the spice to my life, seeing, enjoying, being part of all of the differences, that people are.

 

Yet, we all know or maybe like me, don’t know that there is always a closet racist among us, that there is always that one person who will still call you a racist slur, say something that makes you stop in your tracks and shake your head.

 

That person who hates anyone who is not like “they are” who secretly wishes that it could be a white only race. That smiles at your face but behind closed doors talks a different tune.

 

I can’t believe that today, 2017 after we had a black president, we have gay marriages, we have come so far for equality for people who are different (Their words not mine)

That we still have people like this, people with such closed minds, such hardened hearts yet, this is a fact of life.

 

I refuse to be part of someone like that, I live my life on love, love one another, love thy self, love for everyone. The bible talks about love 585 times.

Love is what is going to heal us as a world, as a nation, as a neighborhood, it starts with us.

 

So to my mixed up bunch of extremely different people, that I am blessed to share my life with, thank you…thank you for sharing your culture, your differences, your uniqueness, that something special, that makes you…you.

 

So today my friends, remember there is always a hater out there, there is always going to be a closet racist, there will always be someone who can’t or won’t accept differences, pray for them, send them love, keep doing you, you are magnificently made, own it and know there are so many more of us that don’t see colors, don’t see the differences, that just see the heart.

 

“Be the change you want to see”

 

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

 

***Now available***

My book “The blessing in Disguise”

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