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I am a warrior
For a person who was afraid of change, who’s fear kept me stuck in a verbally abusive marriage for for 24 years, who was scared of being on my own, making it alone, these last 4 years have had so much change, it sometimes makes my head spin.
But I’ve learned change is not as scary as I onced believed. Change means renew, it means you get to reinvent yourself, to step out of your box, to do things you never thought you could and then feel a sense of accomplishment for doing so.
So recently when my best friend suddenly died, I decided to change yet again, I deleted all my dating apps, I deleted all the jokers numbers in my phone. I also deleted people in my life in general, who didn’t serve my life now. Negative, back stabbing people and people who didn’t have my heart, they were all gone! Bye, there’s the door don’t let it hit you on the ass on the way out.
I decided to learn my own worth again, I had it but lost it again when I caught feelings for someome and felt like I really wanted to be in relationship again. I let them get away with things I swore I would never do again.
No, I am a good women and I need to find me, to know me again and value my worth so someome else will too.
So, I’ve been working on me, I’ve started adding running again to my workout, running frees my mind, makes me feel accomplished.
I added yoga back into my life 3 times a week, to calm my mind, to center me and get in touch with the inner self.
I started writing my second book, I’ve been promoting my business, I’ve been praying more, getting closer to God. All things that make my life fuller, that make me a whole person again.
I realize I have an incredible full life with my girls, my church and church family and friends and family.
I do things, I go places, I am an independent women and I make no excuses for who I am.
If you can’t handle me, my independence, or the fact I am adult enough to have friendships with my ex’s, than YOUR not man enough for me!
No longer will I change for someome, I love me, if you don’t…oh well keep it moving.
I will continue to work on me, by reading, going to seminars, trying to become a better me and if and when I do meet a man God has for me, he’d had better been doing the same thing.
I am my own warrior,
I am no longer the one trying to save everyone who makes no effort in trying to save themselves, those days are over.
I did the work, now you have better done yours. See being alone with yourself, with your feelings makes you take a good, hard look at yourself, warts and all.
I am not perfect by any means and there are still lingering issues I am dealing with from past relationships but this time gives me answers, gives me a chance to deal with them, this time is for me.
So today my friends remember, you are a warrior, you can change, you can be a better version of yourself, if you stop, delete all the crap, drama and assholes out of your life and take a deep hard look at yourself.
You will find your value, your self-esteem, your love for yourself and then you will learn that you can do anything you set your mind to…Like being a warrior!
“Be the change you want to see”
“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”
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