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We are on sensory overload
I know I am not the only one, when I say that I am on sensory overload, that all the things that are going on in the world hasn’t effected us on some deep level.
Lately I feel melancholy, like a cold that you can’t shake, no matter what you try, it’s still lingers.
Between the fires out west, to the major earthquakes in Mexico, to the hurricanes in Texas, Florida and now Puerto Rico, it’s like you don’t know where to look first, your heart goes out to everyone.
Of course there is always going to be something going on in your life as well. For me, after going through my own hurricane and the aftermath I am still dealing with, it has been unbelievable stressful.
As if that wasn’t enough, I did not work for 2 weeks during this hurricane, then my refridge, my toaster, my stereo all broke at the same time and my both cars were damaged in the storm. I am also helping out my both girls with their bills and money as they are still looking for work, this has been a rough few months for me.
Add to this the shooting in Las Vegas, the loss of so many innocent lives yet again and the fact that we still haven’t changed the gun laws.
Then we have #45… oh lord… I don’t have enough time to write all his screw ups…like his threats to Korea, his daily outrageous tweets and lack of compassion that makes me want to scream.
There is also the fact that so many of my dear friends are sick with worry about their families in Puerto Rico that has added to this melancholy.
As a single mom of 2, it’s so hard, you have to worry about keeping a roof over your head, food on the table and the bill collectors at bay. I constantly have to be the strong one, there is no one to hold me at night and tell me everything will be okay. I have no one to depend on and so I have to suck it up and put on my big girl panties every day and my superhero cape and whether or not I feel like I have the strenght to go on, I must for my girls.
I am not the only one going through this, there are plenty of single moms doing the same things, feeling like life is hitting them from all sides, who smile when they drop their kids off at school and as soon as they round the corner, bust out in tears because it is all too much.
How when everyone is asleep, we cry ourselves to sleep praying for help. Asking God for the strenght to go on, as we have none left.
Here’s the thing, don’t get me wrong, I am grateful as I know it could be worst, Hell, it was worst for many years.
I am blessed because I know “There before the grace of God goes I”
… especially when I look at Texas or Puerto Rico…
There is never a day I don’t give thanks but some days I am human…it’s hard to always be the one to have to blow smoke up everyone’s else’s ass.
That when I write about my feelings on the government or what is going on in the world people tell me to stay in my lane…”Just post what you do best, you know… inspirational and motivational stuff”
As if I don’t have a say in things that go on in this world, like they don’t effect me as well.
Sorry, that’s not going to happen because if you read my blog I am 100 percent real, I am not Willy Wonker I do not sugar coat anything. I am a open book, I am here telling you what you have no guts to do, bearing my soul to show everyone that it’s okay to be vulnerable, that it’s okay to not be perfect, to be flawed, to fall on your face in front of the whole world and to have the strenght to get back up time and time again.
So yes, my friends right now I am feeling like so many of you, that I am on sensory overload and yes, the storms are coming at us right now but I know that it will get better.
How can I say this with such conviction? Because I have hit rock bottom not once but twice and I know that deep inside we all have that fighter in us, we are tougher than we think and we will survive.
My advice to you is help others, get out, do something you enjoy, change your thinking, wake up every day grateful your alive, be a blessing for someone else, know that it could be worst, hell it was worst..
Be the change you want to see in this world, it only takes one person…be that person and we will all get through this.
Be the change you want to see”
“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”
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