Get ready to get what you prayed for

Get ready to get what you prayed for

There’s a saying that says think about what you pray for, for it may come quicker than you think. But it might not be wrapped up in the exact box that you wanted to be.

Boy, is that ever true, see recently I had been seeing somebody for quite a long time, but it was not going where I wanted it to. I’m really looking for a serious committed relationship, I have been single for too long and I really want someone to share my life with, to build something with, something that would last a lifetime.

This was a good relationship but I knew it wasn’t going there and even though I saw plenty of signs, I kept ignoring them. I had all kinds of excuses for holding on, it was good, I was having fun, I’d wait till I meet the “right one”

Over and over I kept seeing the signs of what God wanted me to do, but I had my own plans. I kept thinking why isn’t my life going where I want it to go? Why aren’t I further along? I am doing the right things, I go to church, I give, I help others, I read the word, I am grateful, I give his name all the praise and honor, so what’s going on?

Yes, I was doing all of that but I wasn’t obedient. I wasn’t listening to what God was telling me, that I needed to walk away from this. No, human me thought I could have my cake and eat it too.

That’s not how this works as I soon realized. There finally became too many signs for me to ignore, they were everywhere, everyday and so I finally listened, but I knew I couldn’t do this on my own, so I prayed and I asked for God to end this.

And just like that, it was over, he gave me the strength to walk away.
Let me tell you, it hurt me to do this, this was not what I wanted, this was and still is hard as hell but this was me being obedient.

Funny, how when you pray for things, how fast they happen. We had already had this “where is this going talk” twice before this, so he knew what I wanted and needed when I walked away. So I just stopped calling him, I stopped texting him, God gave me the strenght to do this. But here’s the devil playing with you, he never called me, he stopped texting me and the human side of me was mad, like wtf? Why ain’t you calling me? I wanted to call and ask him, but didn’t I ask God to remove him? Why would I go knocking on a door God closed for me? It doesn’t matter why he didn’t call, I prayed, God answered, leave it at that.
It’s because we are human, we pray but we want it done it a nice neat box, the way we want it. That’s not how God works I learned, so I left it alone.

As soon as I listened, blessings started coming my way, I got into a master’s class for public speaking for an unbelievable deal, I got money that I never thought I would see again from an ex friend, doors started opening, as quick as that, all of this came to pass. I was obedient and God was doing his part to give me what I wanted, what I needed at this point in my life.

There were many nights that I wanted to call, that I missed him, that my heart hurt. One night in particular I couldn’t sleep thinking of him, I wanted to text him so bad and tell him I missed him but instead I decided to go online to keep my mind busy. A friend of mine was doing a Facebook live video and he said “God spoke to me and told me to do this video, I don’t know who’s going to be up this late to watch it but I’m being obedient and since I’ve been obedient God has open many doors for me” That was my sign, that video was for me, telling me exactly what God needed me to hear and so it gave me strength to do what the God wanted me to do.

This faith walk is not easy there, are things that you’re going to have to do, things you are going to have to give up and things that are going to make you uncomfortable. They are going to make you hurt but you’re going to have to do them if you want to grow spiritually. If you want to have all of God’s blessings, you need to be obedient.

The one thing I’ve learned out of all of this is I need to be obedient, I need to listen no matter what and believe me I’ve gotten plenty of signs since I’ve listened. Plenty of things telling me about obedience…a meme, a video, a friend speaking to me, all saying the same thing…obedience and so I know that is confirmation from God.
I know this is a journey for me and it will get hard, it will hurt and it will be uncomfortable but I must listen, I must be obedient if I am to get all of the blessings that God has for me, I must do something for him, I must listen.

So today my friends ask yourself why aren’t you where you should be in your faith walk, maybe it’s because you’re trying to do it your way, maybe it’s because you’re not being obedient, maybe it’s because your not praying for the help you need but remember when you pray for something be ready to get what you prayed for.

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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Imagination is the preview of life’s coming attractions

Imagination is the preview to lifes coming attractions

That is a quote from Albert Einstein and I love it because it’s so true.
Think about it, remember when in the dark ages when we use to talk on the phone with a cord attached to the wall? Well someone said imagine if I can take this phone outside or to the bathroom so I don’t miss that important call and have to run down the stairs with my pants around my ankles trying to get it in time. Okay, all of you of a certain age are laughing now because you remember doing just that.
Well someone imagined that and then made it a possibility, they made it a preview of life’s coming attractions.

What about when it took days or weeks to go somewhere by car, someone said imagine if you could fly there in days? And then the Wright brothers made a plane and we did just that.

Edison said imagine if we had a light bulb and we didn’t need oil lamps and after 990 times of trying, thank God he didn’t give up, we now all have light bulbs lighting up our homes.

Yes, what we imagine we can have, my favorite Steve Harvey quote is “You need to stop making your dreams the size of your paychecks”

Doesn’t matter that it seems impossible, hell don’t you think at some point Edison thought his dream was impossible but his imagination was bigger than his fear.

He imagined that it would work, he imagined that homes would have lamps with bulbs, I’ll bet he went to sleep dreaming about the end results.
We need to not worry about how the middle will work out, we just need to imagine what we want and we need to see the end result. The rest leave to God, the universe or whoever your higher power is, to take take care of the rest.

We just need to have the imagination to dream big. Yes, I dream big, I put it out there all the time, I look at it every day on my vision board, I go to sleep dreaming, imagining the life God has for me. Yes, in reality it seems too big of a dream at this age, but nothing is impossible if you believe. There is no doubt that one day I will be sitting in that chair at Oprah’s house in Hawaii on Super Soul Sunday or on a film set laughing with Tyler Perry about the scenes for the movie of my life.
Laugh…but remember that Jim Carey carried around a check he wrote to himself for a million dollars for years, he knew it was coming, he saw it, felt it, imagined it and it came to pass.
Steve Harvey while homeless dreamt of a piece of property that would be his own, he dreamt of being on TV, now he has 7 not 1 but 7 Tv shows and hundreds of acres of land.

Don’t you think people said to them, “Please that is never going to happen, give that fantasy up! It’s a pipe dream, your too old, too poor, too much of a dreamer” but they didn’t listen and neither should you. I sure the hell don’t listen to them, say what you want but when your sorry ass sees me on Oprah or on the red carpet with Tyler Perry you won’t be laughing then. Don’t worry about what others say, it’s your dream not theirs.

So today my friends, remember to imagine, to dream, to believe for big things, bigger than your paychecks, bigger than anyone you know, so big it seems impossible because I am telling you your imagination is the preview to lifes coming attractions!

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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What are you willing to leave behind to move forward?

What are you willing to leave behind to move forward?

Wow… it was great speech I heard last week at a leadership conference from Pastor Kion Henderson. It was as if he knew what I was going through and my friend Omar even said “Well isn’t that confirmation for you”

Yes, these last few weeks I’ve wrote about moving on, facing your fears and determination. I had to be obedient and let go of someone so that I will able to find what is truly for me.

It’s been a struggle as I didn’t want to, I wanted my cake and eat it too but I knew to move on, I had to let go and this was just the conformation I needed to hear once again.

I loved what else he had to say:
You got to lead while you bleed…
No matter how bad your hurting, you have to keep leading.

Intolence is the only way to grow…
You have to be sick and tired of being sick and tired to move on, to grow.

Your affection is your ammunition to change, to move on, to grow.
Your pain gives you purpose, to keep going.

See some of your losses are better than some of your gains. Sometimes you have to let go, let go of people holding you back, people that don’t believe in your dreams, people that aren’t going to the same places you want to go.
It may be relationships, like it was for me I wanted something he didn’t. I couldn’t wait around to see if he would change his mind, I know what I want and the one thing I learned is life is too short to waste time, so I had to move on.

I’ve lost friends who weren’t rowing my boat but were drilling holes while I was rowing. I don’t have time for fake friends, I have big plans either your with me or your gone. Sorry if that sounds harsh but again I wasted to much time trying to make people happy who will never be happy with themselves.

See these are lessons we all need to learn and then move on from and if you are a little slow like me and need the lesson a few times, it’s okay as long as you finally get it.

It doesn’t matter if no one believes in your dreams, if people laugh at you, people laughed at Colonel Sanders, said he was too old to start a business. What about Oprah, she was poor, black and a women, how could she ever end up being the richest women in the world?
What about Edison, when he failed 990 times before he got it right with the light bulb, how many people do you think laughed at him?
How many of you would even keep going after try number 10 or 20? How many would listen to the nay sayers? And quit?

No, you have to let them go, you know the big picture, even if no one else can see it, you see it. It’s up to you to listen to the signs, to ask for help, to keep learning, keep growing, to cut the dead weight off and keep persevering.

I am no smarter than anyone, I am just like you, I have had hardships, heartbreak, I had had friends backstab me, I’ve been knocked down, I have hit rock bottom not once but twice. The only difference is I refuse to give up, I refuse to let go of my dreams, I refuse to take shit anymore. I know what I want and where I am going and either you with me or get the hell out of my way, I don’t have time for you.

Get tough, stand tall, tell the haters, keep hating, speak up loud and proud
“I am still going to do me and you do you, doesn’t matter what you think or say”

So today my friends remember, you can do anything you set your mind to, listen for the messages, learn, grow and accept change. Take your sorrows, your disappointments, your heartbreak and turn them into fuel, to make you stronger, smarter and more determined to get there.
And then ask yourself how bad do you want this? And what are you willing to leave behind to move forward?

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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Determination will get you there

Determination will get you there

Do you know in a race all runners run? But there can only be one winner.

This year I am determined to do all I have set out to do, I made a commitment to never miss my God moment. I will walk out on faith to challenges that I cannot see how it could possible happen, but yet believing that it will happen.

If you can’t imagine yourself winning, you won’t. If your not determined about finishing the race, you will give up, if you do not have the faith to believe, it will not happen.

I was talking with someone this week and I told them of a story of someone I knew who had stage 4 cancer. The doctors gave her 3 months to live but she had faith and hope and she told them she was determined  she was going to live. They must have thought she was nuts, stage 4, yeah right, you don’t live.

She believed in miracles, she never gave up, she willed herself better. Two months later when then ran more scans with one month left of the doctors death sentence, she was cured, yup, no cancer, all gone.

The doctors couldn’t believe it but she believed it, she believed in prayer and she was determined and look where it got her.

My friend asked if I was Tinker bell, yes, I am. I believe.
She said she didn’t believe in miracles, I told her then she would never receive one, you have to believe to receive…

Dont sit around day after day saying poor me, you don’t know what I’ve been through, I am not lucky, there is no way it can change.
Because with thoughts like that it won’t, your telling yourself you will never get better, become successful or change your circumstances, so you have no shot at change.

It all starts with you and your attitude.
Surrounded yourself with people who influence your life in a positive way. Here are 7 ways to start to change

1. Write a set of goals down:
Write a list, make a vision board, look at it, envision it.

2 Take action:
Do something to get it started, research it, talk to others, find a mentor.

3. Be flexible to make changes to your goals:
It’s okay it if doesn’t happen exactly like you see it, it can be way better than you thought.

4 Over look the distractions:
Focus on the prize.

5.Never quit:
No matter what, keep going.

6.Use life experience to your benefit:
Always ask what can I learn from this?

7. Don’t do it by yourself:
Know that there are others around your supporting your dream.

There are 3 things that will bring you down:

1. Negative thoughts:
I can never do this, this is so big and will never happen.

2. People’s attitude:
“You will never do that”
“Don’t you know who you are?”

3. Flashbacks of your past….
You know where you came from, your a loser, you can’t do it, see you tried before.

Forget all of that, know you can do anything you set your mind to.

So today my friends, you have to be determined to be determined.
Do not leave your destiny in the hands of people….
Do not trust people with your happiness
Change your thoughts,  change your life..because determination will get you there.

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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The storms come at us all

The storms come at us all

No matter who you are poor, rich, educated, not educated, movie star or a man that walked on the moon, we all have storms in our lives.

Just because your rich or successful doesn’t exclude you from lives troubles.
The one I love most is when people think that when your Christian that all of a sudden all your problems will magically disappear and never return. Please, if that was the case everyone would be running to convert.

No, nothing not even believing will keep the storms out of your life, sorry to bust your bubble. We all have storms in our lives, that is just a fact of life.
What will, you ask? Determination, grit, an undeniable belief that you will get through life no matter what it throws at you.

Les Brown said “You hope you fall on your back so you can see the sky and know  how to get back up”
Life sucks sometimes for everyone, some of us get more crap thrown at us then others but that just makes us tougher, it makes us more determined to show up and show out.

You can’t quit, you can’t give up, believe me I know how hard it is when the storms are coming at you, when you feel like you can’t breathe, when you want to cry in a corner and throw in the towel and say I’m done, I can’t take it one more second. I have been there on more than one occasion, but I don’t give up, I cry, I scream, I ask God why? I feel sorry for myself and then I get up the next morning, I put my big girl panties on and I push through with fresh eyes, and with more conviction then I had before.

My thing is I have not come this far to let you knock me out, I put in too much sweat, blood and tears to let go of my dreams, even when you can’t see it, even when you think I’m too old, not educated enough, not pretty enough, whatever you think about me, that’s on you. I know I will make it that’s the difference between winners and losers, winners can see the finish line, they practiced it in their minds a thousand times, they can see it, feel it, touch it, way before it ever happens.

It has already become a reality for them and they know what it feels like, so they are going to keep going no matter what.

I have loved boxing since I was a kid, nothing shows you how to keep going more than boxing.
Two men in the top physical shape of their lives, come out and beat each other to a pulp. The other guy may get a black eye, his lip may be bleeding, his body is black and blue and he may have been knocked down, once, twice maybe but inside he saw himself winning. He saw the belt in his hands, he heard the crowds cheering, he knows what it tastes like and that keeps him going when everyone else gave up on him, his perseverance keeps him going beyond what’s humanly possible and he comes back to win the fight!

Yes, seeing it, holding on to your dreams even in the worst storms will get you through lifes troubles.
It’s your attitude, your will, your determination that will get you past it.

So today my friends remember we will always storms in our lives, it’s how we deal with them that will effect the outcome. Be brave, see the finish line, hold that belt in your hands, know what your outcome will be, your outcome, because the storms come at us all.

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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Celebrating mother’s across the world

Celebrating mother’s around the world

Yesterday we celebrated mother’s day, a day when  we actually stop and tell our mom’s how much we appriciate them.
If you read my blogs you know I’m not big on these days, when are are forced to have dinner with our family, Siblings day, Valentine’s day, Teacher’s appreciation day, why must we have a day?
I don’t believe in them because I believe we should always tell the people in our lives how we feel, not once a year but every day.

As soon as I got old enough to get a job I would bring my mom flowers. Not for her birthday, not for mother’s day just because it was Friday, just because they made her smile.
When I moved to Florida I had the greenhouse set up a weekly delivery so that every Friday she still got my flowers just because.

See I wanted to let her know what an amazing mom she was, how I knew how hard her life was, I knew she grew up dirt poor in Harlem, that she had to leave school in the 8th grade to support her family as my grandmother was sick.
I knew she was a waitress working the night shift for years dealing with drunks every night to put food on our table. I knew she owned one descent dress she wore for every occasion because any free money went to me or fixing up our broken down farm house.
I knew that after working her shift, dead tired, she would come home to help my step father fix the house as they didn’t have money to pay anyone to do these things.

I knew what it was like for her to bust her ass every day. I knew my grandmother who was the most misrable, negative person on earth and lived with us, would tell her it wasn’t good enough, she was never grateful for anything my mom did.

I knew how hard it was to go through breast cancer never telling anyone because you are afraid you will lose your job, holding it all together for everyone else. To have your best friend, the father of your child, die suddenly a month later. Only to find out your only child was raped a month after that and you had to take her to endure a horrible abortion.

The night she found my lifeless body on the bathroom floor when I tired to end it all. How she sat by my side all night, how she prayed and cried when I came to, knowing she almost lost me.

Yet never crying, never complaining, always having to be the strong one for everyone else in your life. To be a women in her fifties going back to school to get her GED and then to go college, all while everyone told her it was crazy. My mom never stopped, she never gave up, she had a determination, she was unstoppable.
She took care of my step father for years in the depths of Alzheimer’s, until I found out how bad it was and stepped in.

She was always there for a friend, she always welcomed everyone at our dinner table. Some nights it looked like the United nations at our table. Black, White, Jewish, Chinese, Spanish, old, young, gay, straight, transsexual or drag queen, they were all there.

She opened her home and her heart to everyone, she become friends with all of her clients when she went back to school yet again and got her real estate licence and opened up her own company at 60.

Yes, I had some big shoes to fill and I was always grateful for this women who always put me first, who put aside her anger towards my dad for cheating to put my best interests first. To always be there for me, for always being the best mom. See I didn’t need a special day to tell her how much I admired her, I was constanly buying her cards to let her know, writing her poems, buying her flowers every week. I wanted her to know now, every day she was alive how much I appreciated her.
Not to cry at her grave, saying I wish I would have done this or that…no, I wanted to make sure she knew this now.

I took care of my step dad until he died and I slept on the floor of the Icu for 12 days when she had a heart attack. It was because of what she put into it, into me is what she got out of it. See I wanted her to know what a amazing mom she was and how I never stopped telling her that all she did for me, all she gave up, all she sacrificed for me, that I was truly grateful for it all.

I was there telling her all of this until the very end, she knew how much I loved her. How grateful I was to have her for my mom, to know what an incredible women I thought she was.

So this mother’s day and every day for the last 6 year’s, I have missed her. But I know she knew that I didn’t need a day to tell her how great she was.

So today my friends remember, don’t wait for “a day” to tell someone good job, your great, I appriciate you or I love you… just because I wanted you to know. Be present in the moment with them, spend time with them, call them, send or bring flowers just because….just because…
They won’t be here forever…

Thank you mom…I miss you every day and I only pray I can be half the mom you were…
I know you are always with me every time I see that butterfly…until we meet again…

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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What do you focus on?

What are you focused on?

Today there are so many things that are fighting for our attention, jobs, family, the internet so many things to focus on, it sometimes get overwhelming.

Sometimes we focus on one and the other things get pushed back and it hurts them. It may be that your focusing on your career but your relationship is suffering because of it or you got great friends but your spiritual life is lacking.

Whenever you focus your attention on one thing, you lack of attention will hurt other things in your life.
So you need a check and balances for your life, to make sure none of the things in your life will go bankrupt.

For me the most important things in my life are: God and my spiritual life, my family and friends, what I can give back and my career.

I make sure I am constanly putting into all of them. I am making sure I do not put any of them in the red, that they all get the attention they deserve and need.
So here are 3 decisions you can use to focus:

1. What are you going to focus on?
2. What does it mean?
3. What are you doing to do?

Focus = feeling

We all have patterns with our focus:

1. Do you focus on what you have or what’s missing?
2. Do you focus on what you can control or what you can’t control?
3. Do you focus on the past, the present or the future?

Focus forces that influence over our decisions which are:
State (moment to moment)
Blueprint (long term)

If you change your physiology, then you will change your focus, then you change your State then your Actions /behaviors will change = results.

You can’t be angry and grateful at the same time.
You can’t be fearful and angry at the same time. You have to pick one state to be in.

All of this is talking about about one thing….change. Yes, my favorite word, which 10 years ago was the one word I was most fearful about. Fear kept me stuck, fear kept me from change, fear kept me in a horrible, unhappy place because I didn’t want to change.

I was focused on what I was afraid of, I was focused on the small picture, not the big picture. I was focused on the what if’s, not the what can be’s.

So I changed, I started focusing on what I had, not what I didn’t have. I started focusing on what I can control, not what I can’t. I let go of fear, of stress, of worrying about what I can’t control.

I focused on the present and the future, what was going to come, what was going to happen by my change, not the past and all the mistakes I made. I was done beating myself up for shit I did years ago, done blaming others for my ultimate choices I made.

I made a choice, I changed my focus, then I changed my state of mind, my actions and behavior started to change because of that and that equaled in results of a new me and a new life.

This is not brain surgery, its not rocket science, it’s simply one step. Just like I learned in AA so many years ago to get over my addictions. There are steps you need to do, to work the program. Work the steps and the program works, simple as that. Same thing here you need to work the steps to change and you will change. I am not smarter, not better than any of you, I just came to a point in my life that I was sick and tired of being sick and tired and so I took the initiative and changed.

So today my friends remember, you can change, you can do anything you set your mind to. It’s up to you, I have given you the steps to focus on to help you transition into a new life, now you just have to figure out what you want to focus on.

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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How our memories effect us

How our memories effect us

Recently when talking to my cousin we spoke of my former best friend and what she did to me because of her addiction. I knew I would get a response from my cousin who I love dearly.
It was because I said how I missed her and how I pray for her to get well.

Well, my cousin definitely had something to say about this one (like I didn’t already know that)
And yes, she is right. Lately I had been thinking of my former friend and all the good times we shared together. It seems like every remember when, Facebook showed me was us together and it made me sad that I no longer had this friendship.

Yes, sometimes we remember the good times and smooth right over the bad ones. Its like when a person is a crappie person all their lives but then they die and all of a sudden they are saints. Wtf? Two days ago you were calling them a Sob and now they are wonderful? Get real, just because they are dead doesn’t erase all the bad they did.

I remember a classmate who made my life hell, he was forever calling me names, he was the first to start rumors about me, he tortured me on the school bus every day. I had no idea what I ever did to him but he had it out for me. He was killed in a car crash in our junior year, everyone was going to his funeral, when they asked if I was going I said no.

They said it was disrespectful that I wasn’t going, how could I not go. I said I wasn’t a hypocrite, I didn’t like him and he never liked me when he was alive and just because he’s dead doesn’t change that fact.

Look I was sorry he died, he was young and had his whole life ahead of him but it didn’t change the fact he was a ass.

So I get my cousin, my former friend was a ass to me, she hurt me and yes, sometimes I tend to forget all of that when I am remembering the past.

Yes, it’s because I am Tinker bell and I do see the good in people even the “toads”
I will never change, that’s just me.

But I am far from stupid as I will never let her or anyone else who hurt me, do it again. Their loss not mine.
I am a friend for life, I love with all I am, I have your back, I am your ride or die girl… but, if you hurt me, we are done.

I will not let you back in my life to do it again, I am that women that if you cheat once it’s over, no second chances ever! No, I will forgive you, but I won’t forget.

So today my friends and my dear cousin who I love so very much and who I know has my back without me ever looking.

Know this…I am not going to change, I will still pray for my enemies, I will still keep looking for the good in people even when you see none, I will still forgive the ones who hurt me and I will still remember the good times and miss what we had and even through the pain, I will still remember the good, that’s just me.

Otherwise the memories of the pain will effect my entire life in a negative way and I’ve already went down that road, so I will continue to believe in fairy tales, I am going to forever be Tinkerbell and not grow up…
Me and Peter pan will be waiting for you in Neverland…

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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Don’t send me pictures of your junk

Don’t send me pictures of your junk!

Omg! What is dating coming to these days?
I have been single for a while and I have to tell you it’s getting scarier and scarier out here.

Men who just want a texting pen pal and never want to meet, men who lie and say they want a relationship but are only looking to hook up, men who can’t or won’t step up and then there is the ones who have a burning desire to show off their dicks!

Yes, you all know about them if you are a women, the “Dick pic guy”
The guy who after a few good morning, how are you texts, decides out of nowhere that he must show you his junk.

And BAM! There it is, a good morning picture of his junk in what he thinks is, all of his glory.
Look I get it if this is your boyfriend or husband and your spicing things up, its good, your playing and it’s okay but when you just meet someone or last week in my case haven’t even meet him and then they decide to do this, It then  becomes a Wtf??

Like in Wtf…is wrong with you? Wtf… why would you think I want to see your junk? Wtf…all junk looks the same?
Or my very favorite Wtf… Don’t send your picture of your junk to a women who has been with a black man (It’s not an urban myth!)

One guy said “So your assuming I have a small dick?”
I responded “No, I no longer have to assume!”

Seriously! I am going to cut you down, insult you and then I will send it to all my girlfriends and we will laugh at you.
Oh yes, we do this and we ask all the Wtf questions to why you think we needed or wanted to see this.

Some of you should be embarrassed to show this to anyone…ever!
Some need some serious manscaping, some are just nasty with hanging, saggy balls…yuggh please it’s not all that, trust us!
You seen one junk, you’ve seen them all. (Ok, maybe not..refer to paragraph above about urban myths)

To add insult to injury, this last one was while he was on the toilet…. I’ll wait till you stop laughing….
I can’t make this shit up people!
Ohhhh…like that is so sexy.

Do they think “Oh, I’m going to send this picture of my junk while I’m on a nasty toilet and this women is going to cream in her drawers and come running over with her pants down  to have sex with my sexy beast!”

Really, this is what you must be thinking inside of your pea brain…why else would you possibly send this?

Wait….Sorry I’m still laughing… see Mr. Dick pic this is what we are doing…we are frigging laughing at you! This is not sexy, this does not turn us on, this makes us mad actually, that you think we must be some kind of women that after 5 texts that it would be okay to do this.

Did we ask about your junk?
Did we discuss anything sexual? Did it say anywhere in our profile that we wanted to hook up? No! So where in the world did you think it was a good idea?
It’s not! It never will be! So stop sending them, unless of course you want to be in my blog about saggy balls.
Seriously…just don’t send them, ever!

Dating today is hard enough, we don’t need to see pictures of your nasty junk that probably isn’t all that when it comes down to it anyway, let’s be real. It already shows us it’s all about you and what you want, so I’ll be betting it’s all about you in bed as well…
Next….swipe left….delete…

Please feel free to send this to all the men that send you these pics, guys send it to a friend who needs help keeping it in his pants. Share it, as there are many men out there doing this…
Speak out loud and clear and help me start my new movement…
#dontsendmepicturesofyourjunk
#Wtf
#nosaggyballs

It’s okay…I’m still laughing too!

“Be the change you want to see”

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Lost in translation, texting today

Lost in translation….texting today

I have to talk about texting, as it is the number one form of communication in today’s dating world, oh hell in the entire world’s communication.

Texting is this generations most use form of communication. Don’t get me wrong it’s great for things like your kids telling you to bring home milk, or to tell you they got there or got home okay. It’s great to tell someone your running late or that you can’t talk right now but as solely a means for communication, some things get lost in translation.

Back in the stone ages, we had phones attached to the wall, you waited for hours for someone to call and God forbid you had to go to the bathroom and then the phone finally decides to ring.
There you are, running out with your pants around your ankles trying not to fall on your face to grab the phone before it stops ringing and then trying to act like your not out of breath so that you don’t seem desperate or like you were waiting on their call!
Oh, so many of you are laughing right now at that memory!

We had long conversations on the phone, we heard disappointment, sadness and happiness in someone’s voice. If you said something stupid you could correct yourself fast and explain what you really meant. God, it was so much easier back then when we actually spoke to each other.

Now with texting, you can’t tell if someone is joking, mad or aggravated and if someone doesn’t use punctuation.. Oh forget it! Your totally lost!

I was having a conversation with a guy I met online recently and I was in a rush, as I was off to a clients house but wanted to at least answer him back and it came off like I was pissed and he said so.
I tried to explain the situation but that took another 10 minutes..yuggg!

Last week, as it was a long week and I was aggravated about something that happened with one of my clients. I was texting someone that I have been talking to and his answer to me was “Smh” which I took for like…whatever…and then I got mad and said “Thanks for you support! Not!!”
It wasn’t until later my cousin informed me that “Smh” meant shaking my head, like he couldn’t believe what my client did either. Who knew? Obviously not me! So I had to call and apologize for my response. See how fast texting can go down hill?

Now let’s talk about what’s with the fact that you text someone and they don’t text you back for hours or days?? This pisses me off to no extent.

Look fool, I know you have that phone attached to your hand 24/7. You even pee with it in your hand and yet here I am waiting for hours or days for a response? Wtf?

No one knows anything about real conversation anymore, gone are the days you meet someone and you spend hours on the phone with them and you fell sleep with the phone in your hand…again your laughing, well…you are if your in my generation!

No today it goes:

“Hi”
“Hey”
“How are you?”
………………….5 hours later
“Good, you”
“Great, what are doing this weekend?”
………………….. three days later
“Nothing”
“Well, that’s good since the dam weekend is already past!”
Delete….

Uggggg…..is this just me? Or does texting make us stupider?
What the hell is going on with today’s society?
Sorry I am a writer and I can not get my point across in three words or less…impossible! This is not name that tune (Again dinosaur reference)

This was not invented to have full out conversations, yet we are trying to do that with it.

And here’s one that I am “Smh” about… sending dick pics through text! Really???
You haven’t even met and a few good morning texts later you think it’s okay to send a picture of your junk?
Don’t…because I will tell you off, make you feel stupid and show all my friends and laugh at you! For the love of God, don’t do it!!

And then there is the worst of all, people breaking up with people via text. You got to be kidding? You have no balls at all, you are the scum of the earth in my book. Grow a pair, stand up and be a man, face her, it’s the least you can do as your about to hurt another human being.

One of my last relationships, I had to do via the phone and it killed me. I wanted to be face to face, but I lived 1500 miles away and it couldn’t wait a second longer.
Okay… but I sure the hell didn’t do it using a text and I was 1500 miles and so I couldn’t run over there to do it in person.

Dating in the second half of our life’s is tough. We are new to this, all of this technology, online dating, relationships via texting, flaky unconnected people…this was not like it was in the stone ages…but we must adapt and grow otherwise we will be left behind and alone.

So today my friends, remember this is a whole new game, texting has become a part of our everyday lives, but we must be respectful of others, we must think about how our words are coming across, we must for the love of God… use punctuation!

This one thing can mean a world of difference…
Let’s eat grandma
Vs
Let’s eat, grandma
Have a laugh on me today! While we are lost in translation.

“Be the change you want to see”

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