7 spiritual self help tips

7 spiritual self help tips

Here’s the thing, you can’t control what people say about you, but you can control how you respond to what people say about you.
You need to protect and empower your hearing, either your listening to them or your listening to God.

Romans 10.17 says
Faith comes by hearing and hearing the word of God.

You can change your environment by what you hear…Don’t listen to anything that is negative, nothing that puts you down, that cuts you to the core, people can and will be haters, they can be jeoulus, they can be hurt and we know that hurt people, hurt people.

I no longer watch Tv, I don’t want to hear a hour of hate, of depressing news, of negativity, I chose not to hear that, not to have that in my life. I am current with what’s going on with what I want to hear, when and how much I want to hear.

You need to know that change for the better can happen in all areas in your life. But you must be mindful of the voice you listen to.

So here are 7 spiritual self help steps to practice:

1. Walk by faith, even when you can’t see.

Even when the storms come, when it’s so dark and you don’t think you can hold on, hold on to that faith.

2. God never fails.

God is not a man, he cannot lie, he will always do what he says he will.

3. God can turn it around in an instant.

Yes, in one day, one second he can change your life, but remember it’s on his time, not yours.

4. You are more blessed than you realize

Yes, it can and probably has been worst, be grateful of where you’ve been, have gratitude for what you have now.

5. God’s mercy is bigger than any of your mistakes.

He is a forgiving God and thank him for that because we are human and we screw up all the time but he will forgive us time and time again.

6. Always believe in God because there are some things that not even Google can answer.

He is the ultimate Google, he has all the answers, to all of life’s questions. He knows the begining and the end, ask him, go to him, he will tell you what you need to know.

7. Hard times will consistently be there, so will Christ.

Yes, even being Christian will not stop your problems, you will still have hard times and if your like me you will cry out “Why God why?” But he will be there, he is always there for you.

So what are you hearing on a daily basis? What are you listening to? Who do you have in your circle?
This weekend I was blessed enough to have dinner with a bunch of people who I took my last conference with. These were women who are making a difference in people’s lives, they are strong, positive women and the energy was amazing but I also know if your with negative people, they will suck your energy, you will feel drained and that is the difference, know the difference and then chose wisely.

Protect what you are hearing…whatever or whoever is feeding you, make sure they are feeding you with positive things, positive thoughts. This is your life, you get to chose who to let in, who is sharing your time, your precious time, be the boss and fire some people. Even when they are family, that doesn’t give them a free pass to shit on you, to kill your dreams, to speak negativity into your life.

So today my friends remember, you get to chose the life you want to live, to chose what you hear, what you listen to, who gets your time and energy, so chose wisely and follow these 7 spiritual steps to change your life.

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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The power of forgiveness

The power of forgiveness

This week while we were promoting the documentary I was blessed to be in, a few people ask us about forgiveness so I thought it was time to write about it yet again.

I remember talking to my cousin on the phone, she had mentioned my blog about my best friend that said I forgive her. I had forgiven her for borrowing money and then never talking to me again.

She wanted to know why I was letting her off the “hook” after all the crappie things she did to me? Why would I forgive her? She went on to say, now in her eyes she’s off the hook, she doesn’t have to take responsibility for robbing me and all the other hurt she caused me.

My cousin was pissed, she is one of the few people in my life I can count on to have my back, so I knew she was saying this because she was coming from this place of love and concern for me and believe me, I am grateful for her and all of her concerns.

I told her it wasn’t about my best friend, it was for me, but she wasn’t haven’t any of it. “No, she doesnt get a free pass and you don’t have to apologize for writing about the hurt she caused you. Or for the fact none of your other “so called” friends that didn’t take a stand for what was obviously right, yet none of them had the balls to back you or were even be there for you in your time of need”
Oh, she was on a roll now and rightfully so but I am over all of it and tried again to explain my stand on this.

I told her about the time I was driving my new Mustang, the tee tops were off (Yes, this was the 80’s) the music was blasting, it was a beautiful spring day and I was truly happy, driving and singing out loud until the moment I saw the man who raped me, my whole demeanor changed. I became angry, I had such hatred in my heart, my body changed too, I was tense, my hands gripped the wheel like I was strangling him, everything changed in that one second.
All I wanted to do was jump the curb and run him and his sickening smiling face over and then back up and run him over again!

He was walking out of a store with someone, he was laughing, not a care in the world, he obviously wasn’t thinking of me or the fact that I hated him or even cared if I hated him. No, he was living his life.

The only person this was effecting was me, he was ruining my life over and over again because I was letting him.
At that moment I knew I had to do something as this was going on for 5 years, all this anger, resentment and hatred, it was eating ME alive, not him. I had to let it go or I was never going to move on with my life.

That day changed my life, I sat down and wrote him a six page letter. I poured my heart out, about how could he do this, he knew me, he knew I had just lost my dad, he took away my virginity, which he knew I was saving for my high school sweetheart. I spoke about the horrible abortion I had to go through, about all the hatred I felt for all these years. I spoke of my drug and alcohol addiction that this had caused me to try to drown my pain with and the fact that I couldn’t trust anymore, this one event changed my whole life and it was all his fault.

Yes, I let it all go and when I was done I told him I forgave he, that it didn’t make what he did to me okay, that was for him to live with, to deal with, with God. This was for me because I couldn’t love again, I couldn’t live again truly until I let go of the hate and so I forgave him and I took back my life.

I never sent him this letter, this was for me as well, to put all my feelings in writing to see them and then let them go. I burnt the letter in a fire afterwards and just the the Phoenix, I was reborn. (Maybe another reason I so wanted to walk on fire years later)

I know me and my cousin will never see eye to eye on this subject and its okay, we all have different opinions, we all believe in different things, that’s what makes the world go around.

I am grateful for her and the fact that she will always tell me like it is, that she always has my back and that she truly loves me.

I am happy with my decision and I am again at peace inside of me, wether or not she feels like she got off the hook, wether or not others walked away because I spoke out or didn’t come to my defense, no longer matters, see God sometimes closes doors that need to be closed for your own good, not everyone gets to come for the whole ride. Its not about all of them, its about me and my life, always has been, always will be.

So today my friends, remember this is your life don’t go around with anger and hatred in your heart, let it go. Learn the lessons you are supposed to learn, forgive and then reval in the power of forgiveness.

“Be the change you want to see”

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What I’ve learned at the National Achievers congress

National achievers Congress

I speak all the time about changing your life, but to change you have to take action.

You have to do things, learn things and grow in order to change.
For me it’s about constantly learning, I read books, I watch YouTube videos, I go to these conferences. I am putting all these things into my brain to make myself a better person, to change what I don’t like, to improve what I need to improve on. To step out of my own box, step outside of fear in order to change.

So here are some incredible things I’ve learned yesterday by some of the top people in their fields, I hope you enjoy them and learn from them as much as I did.

So over and over the one thing we heard from all of them was this:

“The number one thing is to believe in yourself!!”

Robert Herjavec
Entrepreneur and Shark Tank investor told us:

To become great at anything you must do these steps:

1. You have to believe your going to be successful
2. You have to take Action
3. You have to believe in the Results
4. You have to have a Purpose, that is greater than yourself

“Doesn’t matter where you came from, how smart you are, it only matters the action, that you take”
“The biggest lie is what you tell yourself”

Gary Vaynerchuck Entrepreneur, social media Guru spoke about:

“Dreams are great but it will never happen unless you put the work behind it”

“Lack of knowledge leads to fear. Fear is the dark room where dreams don’t get developed”

“If you have nothing to lose, you have nothing to fear”

“Excuses are the drugs not to do”

“I don’t complain because I don’t expect anything anyone”
(Big one for me that I am learning, not everyone is going to do what you will do!)

Doug Nelson
Entrepreneur, stock market Guru said:

What is your financial blueprint?

Mental & Emotional & Spiritual
= cause
Physical = effect

You cannot fix money problems with money, you always will have the same mindset until you learn how to change it.

1. Thoughts
2. Feelings
3. Actions
How you think, how you feel around money is going to be your results. Stop chasing fruits and focus on the roots.

Tony Robbins told us:

The most powerful way to learn is emergson.
If you just listen you remember 10 %
If you take notes you will remember 50%
If you take notes and put energy into it, you rememeber 80 %

You need that hunger and drive to change your life.
When your in the flow… we know it, we feel it, it feels right.

We are the only creatures on earth that can think a thought and be happy, think a angry thought and be angry, be grateful, be sad…we can think any thoughts and change our whole bodies.
So because we don’t want to take ownership for things in our lives, we blame others, we become a victim in our own lives.

Your past does not equal your future.
Have you ever failed? Did you try again?
What was your reasons for failing?
Not enough money, energy,
drive, knowledge… there are a thousands of excuses.
They are all resources…

Failure is never a lack of resources, it’s a lack of resourcefulness

Emotions are the ultimate resource.
Expand your threshold of control.
Look inside, see the gifts God has given you, come into a beautiful place, a place of gratefulness, of peace, of love, of joy and you can end your own suffering.
If your angry, sad, frustrated, change your space by thinking thoughts of gratefulness, of peace or joy.

It’s the 90 second rule.
For 90 seconds when you mad, pissed, depressed stop and for 90 seconds think of all the things that bring you joy, that your grateful for and you state will change, guaranteed.

There were so many more things I learned as I was there from 8 am to 8 pm. Yes, all day, I took off from work, because you need to always feed your brain, your spirit and your soul. You need to learn in order to grow and like Tony said if your not learning or growing, your dying.

So today my friends remember, you are never too old to learn, to change, to grow, start today, read a book, watch inspirational videos, books on tape, go to a conference, open your mind, decided to change what’s not working, its up to you and like I say at the end of every blog…
“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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Joyful people pratice gratefulness

Joyful people practice gratefulness

I don’t usually watch TV but I love Oprah Super Soul Sunday, she had on a guest Dr.Brene Brown and she had wrote a book she researched about gratefulness. It said that the most joyful people practice gratefulness, wow Oprah light bulb moment!

I know this to be true, I have found joy and peace in my life that I have never had before and the one thing about having it is that I am so very grateful.There is not a day that goes by that I don’t give thanks and I don’t give the credit to God. At times I am so very grateful, it will bring me to tears, it overcomes me, I can’t say it enough times.

Yes, I was in a dark place for many years and even there I tried looked for something to be grateful for. You need to go through the day looking for things to be grateful for.

Be grateful for the small moments, having dinner with your kids, a warm breeze, the sunrise, a kind word from someone, start small if you feel you can’t be grateful for everything.

Gratitude is a practice, be grateful for the ordinary moments. Be present in them, enjoy every second, don’t ask when will the other shoe drop, just feel blessed at that moment.

These are a few of Dr Brown’s quotes from her book about gratitude:
To be a whole hearted person that is cultivating authenticity:

*Letting go of what people think.

I no longer care what people say, I wore a mask for too many years, I am happy with me, God is happy with me, thats all that matters.

Cultivating self compassion:

*Letting go of perfectionism.

I tried for years to be perfect and it literally almost killed me, there is no such thing as perfectionism, your human, you have flaws, its okay.

Cultivating a resilient spirit:

*Letting go of powerlessness.

Yes, you will fall down, get back up, its okay I write about my failures each and every day, yet I still keep going with a positive attitude.

*Cultivating gratitude and joy:
Letting go of scarcity and fear.

This was a big one for me, fear ruled my life, I didn’t like change, I stayed 20 years in a horrible situation because of fear. When you give it over to God, to the universe, to who ever you believe in and trust, it is then you can find peace and joy in your life.

You can’t find joy when your beating it to the finish line by saying “Oh when is the next shoe going to drop? This is too good, something bad will happen” No… live in this moment, let go of fear, have faith! Live life large!

So today my friends, practice gratefulness, start when you wake up, say thank you for waking me up, thank you I can walk to the bathroom, thank you I have a home and hot water, start small, practice every day and before long you will be grateful for everything you have, every moment in your life.

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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Rape is rape and it is never okay

Rape is rape and it will never be okay

Recently I have been part of this documentary called This is rape series, we came together with a bunch of survivors of rape and sexual molestation. We are  talking about this because we want to raise awareness to let everyone know that rape is rape, when a woman says no it’s no, period.

I am outspoken about this subject because it is near and dear to my heart and even after all these years, it seems we are still in the dark ages about this topic.

I remember the Stanford University student who raped a girl, he was a typical rich kid, handsome and privileged, so because of this people felt we should give him a free pass from raping someone?

His father thought so, even to publicly say it was only 15 minutes, like because his son was fast, it didn’t count? Are you frigging serious?

That 15 minutes will replay over and over in that poor young girls mind, millions of times, she will remember this 10 years from now, 20 years, even 40 years from now, believe me when I tell you this.

Its been almost 40 years for me and every time I hear a sickening story like this, it brings me right back to that day, like it was yesterday.

I can remember every detail, every emotion, even down to what the grass smelled like when he was done with me and threw me out of the car on the side of the road. How my lungs burned as I ran and ran for hours afterwards, how my skin burned from trying to scrub him off of me over and over until I collapsed in the bottom of the tub, my tears mixing with the now cold water, how I laid there for God knows how long with tears racking my body, how his face cursed my dreams night after night.
No, that “15 minutes” took over my life for years and years to come.

It took years of drug and alcohol addiction, years of guilt for me because I knew him and took a ride with him, I smoked a joint with him. Years of hatred towards him, years of being promiscuous, years of therapy. Until I finally came to forgiveness because I knew I couldn’t move on without doing that, it was more for me than him, believe me.

All of the people I have been blessed to meet through this project say the same thing over and over. How it affected their lives 10, 20, 30, 40, 50 years later, how it affected their relationships and their self-esteem.

But no matter how many years later, it is for all of us, when we hear of this or Bill Cosby, even though we are at an amazing place in our lives right now, we still go there, it still brings us to that place, it’s just how it is.

Why is it still okay to justify this behavior? Why do we still have the good olde boys club in place letting this still happen? Why aren’t more people crying out to stop these injustices?

If it was your mother, your sister, your wife, you better believe men would step up faster and louder but its a  them, not us, attitude today, so many people think, it could never happen to us, wake up!

This is not just about walking in the park and someone jumps out and rapes you issue, this is a common problem. Especially in our colleges, with over privileged boys not having to own their actions. Famous celebrities and men with power that think they can get away with it, this is everywhere. It could be your uncle, your grandfather, your father even, and as I learned even your aunt, your babysitter as it happens to men as well.

When will we realize when a women says no, it means no period, end of story! When will we realize that when you touch someone against their will, it is sexual abuse.

Doesn’t matter if she knows him, doesn’t matter if they are dating, doesn’t even matter even if you are married, it is a women’s body and her choice. When she says no, thats it, cross that line and you buddy, become a common rapist, there is no sugar coating that!

So I say to this rich, untouchable Stanford University rapist dad and the many other people who feel this way, it’s not “just 15 minutes” it will never be 15 minutes for this young girl and for the rest of us survivors and it will never be okay, never!

So today my friends, stand up for what’s right, stand up for a women’s choice, speak out against this and the many other unthinkable crimes that are going on all over this world to women.
Do what’s right…this is never okay.

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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Consider your ways

Consider your ways

God repeats himself in the bible “Consider your ways” a few times because he wanted you to get this  message.

We are so busy trying to get things and yes, God wants us to prosper but we tend to put God out of our lives and out of our planning and it’s not until we fall into a ditch that we reach out to God.

God is sending a word to us, that we need not put God out but we need to consider our ways.
Some people say God doesn’t want you to be blessed or have material things or that you need to give everything you have back to him.
But that’s not what God wants for us, all he wants is for you to make sure you make him a priority, put him first.
To remember that while your in pursuit of your desires that you won’t forget to support his house as well.

Consider your ways…
How your thinking? How is it that your so busy with the consumption of things, that you don’t consult God first and then he doesn’t get any of it.

We all have different ways we view things, some people don’t care about family, but for some people, their families mean the world to them.
Some people live for the moment spend like there’s no tomorrow and some people think they have to manage what God gave them.
You need to do things that pleases God, you need to step back and look at the life your living.

Ask yourself, how are you living your life? How is your thoughts about money? Are you to prideful?
Your running out of time,
you need to clean up your act because you still have time to do his agenda.

If everything you do is about yourself, your not listening to God’s word.
Who does your help come from?
Most people act like you have arrived and you don’t need God, you don’t need to listen to him. Don’t think you can just take God’s stuff and walk away and not give back. It is he that gave you everything and he that can take it all back.

So many people do this, it is only after things don’t work out, then you come to him, you come when your mad, when things don’t manifest when you prayed. How come you want to know? Why God? You ask.
But you didn’t ask God about your relationships, your job, your finances did you? But then you get mad when things don’t work out, why? It wasn’t important enough to ask him his advice in the beginning but as soon as it’s not going your way you are fast to blame him.

When we have the wrong way of thinking it will take us off the track. The problem is we don’t know how to manage our blessings, whenever your desires become more important than God, then it will ruin you.
We need to remeber, don’t be jealous over others riches, don’t be envious of others, stay at your level, stay in your lane, God has things for you, especially for you.

So today my friends remember more than anything else put God’s work first and God will have his way with you but first you must consider your ways.

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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You need to be happy with yourself first

You need to be happy with yourself first.

It’s amazing that so many people think outside things will make you happy or make you complete.

If I had more money…
If I had a better job
If I had a bigger house
If I lose weight
If I find the love of my life, that’s a big one for so many people.

Yes, most of us romantics desperately want someone to say the line from that movie “You complete me” like that will make all of your other problems go away.

Unfortunately I hate to be the one to bust your bubble, but it’s not. No one is going to complete you, no one will make you happy unless your truly happy with yourself first. You need to already be complete before you get into a relationship.

See the problem today is everyone wants a quick fix, no one wants to put in the work, no one wants to unpack, to see what was their issues of the last relationship and be willing to fix them before moving on the next one.

No, they grab their luggage full of crap and run right into the next one, same issues, new person. And then so many of them say “It’s them not me”
When they keep going from one to the next, to the next.

I talk a lot about my previous marriage and how it was verbally abusive but even though it was all of that, I still had to unpack, I still had to own what I did and believe me I was no angel.

Yes, I had to own that I lied, that I checked out the last 5 years, I had an emotional affair, I didn’t want to work on it anymore, I was done for years yet I didn’t have enough balls to leave.

I like the fancy lifestyle and was even willing to sacrifice my happiness to keep it. Yes, I had my issues but I knew I had to learn to be happy on my own, I had to admit my faults, I had to learn to fix them before I could move on.
I had to learn to forgive him…(Oh big one there!)
And let go before I could find happiness.

For 2 years I didn’t date anyone because I was fixing me. And even still, when I decided to try again I picked Mr. Con Artist ha!

Back to the drawing board, to learn about listening to my inner voice and to know my worth. Another year without dating made me learn to love myself, made me stronger, made me complete with me.

But even still I had issues I needed to resolve, even when I thought I did my work, I was made to realize that I still had more work to do. The last two relationships taught me that I am not done, not by a long shot, I must keep owning my own shit and change.

I am now happy being by myself. I made a life, I have my family and friends, I do things, I learned new things, I stepped out of my box more times than I could count to experience new things.

I know my self worth, I know what I want and what is a definite deal breaker for me. I know money doesn’t make you happy, neither does your job, your family, your man or women. I know how to be filled with peace and happiness on my own, by myself. I know there are still lessons I need to learn and that’s okay, I am a work in progress, as long as I am open to being better, it’s all good.

It is only when you get to this point that your ready to meet someone else. Ahhh…here’s the next problem, now you need to find someone who also did the work on themselves, who are whole otherwise they will suck the happiness right out of you, as they feel you need to make them happy.

If your a giver like me, you’ll do it because you want to please them…that is a slippery slope because sooner or later you will be giving your all to them and lose yourself, just like what happened in my marriage.

So today my friends remember, you must be complete, you must be whole, you must do the work to get there, it is only then, you will be truly happy. Because you need to be happy with yourself first.

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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Living my best life

Living my best life

This week my one of my girlfriends said to me.
“Girl, your living your best life”
I laughed and thought yes, I am!

We talked about that last night while she was at my house and doing the last video shoot for the documentary that I was blessed be part of, #Thisisseries
We spoke of how I am living life large, living my best life and how it was so amazing to her.

I told her it was because of where I came from, the hurt, the place of brokenness that made me so grateful and want to enjoy every second of this life I am living now.

Some people wallow in their past, it keeps them stuck, it holds a cloud over every other part of their lives. That is because they chose to do that, I chose to learn from my past and be grateful I am no longer there. I chose to be present in each and every moment, to leave the dishes in the sink and the list of things to do in order to participate in real life, my life.

I truly am grateful for my past because without it I wouldn’t fully appriciate my life now, I wouldn’t know what it takes to struggle and I wouldn’t know what real blessings look like.

I am fully engaged in my life now, I don’t know how much time I have here but whatever time it is I am going to enjoy every second of it. I am constanly stepping out of my box, pushing myself beyond my limits, trying new things, meeting new people and opening my mind up to explore.

I am willing to try pole dancing classes, Bachata and salsa dancing, Ariel yoga. I will drop everything for a friend from out of town or someone who wants to do something with me because these are the moments, the memories that will last forever, this is what life is about.

It’s not about a 9-5, with a list of things as long as your arm to do and stress over everything everyday. No, it’s about living your life to the fullest!

When you die will you say I wish I did more things on my list or will you say I wish I spent more time doing the things I loved with the people I loved?
No one regrets that they didn’t work more, everyone regrets that they didn’t spend more time living the life they had.

So today my friends remember, the dishes and lists will be there when I am dead and when your dead but life won’t, so I am committed to living my best life now.

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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What is fear?

What is Fear?

What is fear?
Fear=
False
Evidence
Appearing
Real

Or it can be:
Forget everything and run
Or
Face everything and rise.

Fear is what you chose it to be, there’s that word again, chose, you chose to be stuck in fear and run or you chose to face it and rise.

Dr. Smily Blanton said fear is the most desperate of all human diseases.
It kills dreams, it kills hopes, it makes you sick, it ages you and it holds you back, so then what is the benefit of fear?

It’s a good crutch for some, a good excuse for not doing something, I can’t…I’m afraid, it’s too scary.

Fear has another benefit, it strengthens your muscles, it makes you face what you fear, if you chose to, it will make you stronger. You know the saying what doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger, it’s true.

I remember being stuck in fear, always saying I can’t take care of myself. What if I can’t pay the rent? What if I can’t take care of my girls? What if I never find another man? So many what if’s that I was literally stuck in this horrible marriage. I couldn’t move, I couldn’t do anything because fear ruled my life.

I remember being a white knuckle flyer, I was scared to death of flying, I would go into a panic as soon as we took off. I held on to the seat like my life depended on it and to me it did.

I loved to travel but this was holding me back so after years I decided to change it, I decided to cure my fear.
I had to overcome it and so I jumped out of a plane.
Hey, if your going to do it, do it big!

Yes, I jumped out of a plane, and yes, I thought I was going to die, because not only was it a plane but it was a 1950’s old, beat up crop duster plane no less, oh, I thought I would shit in my pants for sure!

But I overcame the fear by facing it head on and guess what? Not only did I live, not only did I conquer my fears, I didnt shit in my pants either!

Yes, I overcame what I feared most, when I finally left my marriage, I remembered thinking…
I jumped out of a plane, I’ve been through so many losses, a rape, an abortion, drug and alcohol addiction, 2 suicide attempts, Hello! I can survive anything!

Think about all you’ve been through in your lives, things at the time you never thought you would get through, yet you did. You got past fear, you got past the hardest times because you didn’t give up. That’s the secret, didn’t think it was so easy did you?

Yes, you have gotten through things before and if you keep living, life will definitely throw some more shit at you, I guarantee that.
But the good news is that you will overcome that as well, as long as you let go of fear.

So today my friends, remember it’s up to you, it’s your choice to stay stuck, to be afraid, to forget everything and run or to face everything and rise, you get to decide what fear is.

“Be the change you want to see”

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Being obedient

Being obedient

I am big on lessons and signs from above, even though sometimes I am hard headed and it takes me longer to listen, eventually I get there.

Recently this message was more than evident to me as I kept seeing it over and over. I had been seeing someone for the last year, I knew it wasn’t right, I knew this was not going where I wanted it to go. I knew this wasn’t what God had for me but I wasn’t ready to let go.

I kept getting sign after sign that confirmed that but I wasn’t ready, I thought I could keep doing things my way. I kept making excuses, maybe it wasn’t really the sign, maybe things will change, maybe I could keep having fun until what I really wanted came along.

When I kept getting sign after sign, when each talk was just like the last talk, when things never changed, I realized this was not going where I wanted or needed it to.These were definitely the signs I needed to hear and listen to.

The signs kept saying he’s blocking you from your blessings, no-one else will come into your space, this is not for you, let it go.
I couldn’t let it go, I had feelings, I told this man my hopes and dreams, I invested a year into this, we had amazing chemistry, amazing… how could I walk away? So I prayed to God to let this go, if this wasn’t for me close the door, take these feelings away that I couldn’t do myself and let me move on to what was suppose to be mine.

Every day for weeks I prayed, yet everytime he called I caved, I was drawn to him like a moth to a light, so I prayed more for him to give me strength. When I finally said enough is enough, I stopped calling him and funny enough he stopped calling me. He was always a tit for tat kind of person so I figured that’s why. Then after 10 days he deleted me from social media and I was mad, my cousin said “You should call him ask him why? What the hell”

But I said “No, I prayed to God to close the door, he closed it the way he saw fit, I cannot go banging on that door to open it, I have to let it go and move on like I prayed for, no matter what the reason is I don’t need to know”

Well being obedient says alot because a week later, I got another full time client, I got into a master’s program for public speaking for close to nothing, I got a job ghost writing a business blog and a ex friend who borrowed money from me and then stopped talking to me for a year called me up out of the blue to pay me back the money, exactly what I needed to pay my taxes this year.
Don’t tell me God can’t or won’t do it, if your obedient.

The other night I was asked out on a date, I was debating on going but I had alot of work to do for this masters class, I prayed and during a break I went on social media and the first thing I saw was this meme that said “Focus on you, focus on what you want to make yourself better, eventually everything else in your love life will come to pass better than you ever could dream of”

Ha! Now that was a sign and so I was obedient yet again, I stayed home and worked. This is going to be my breakthrough year, a year of restoration just like my Bishop said it will be.
I am believing God for amazing things, for a change that will blow my mind but only if I am obedient, if I trust him, if I learn my lessons, if I ask him first and then listen.

This is yet another lesson I needed to learn to move on to the next stage of my life, to know I am worthy of more, to not settle, to listen, to watch for the signs and to be obedient.

So today my friends remember you need to listen, to see the signs, to pray for guidance and then not be as hard headed like me and be obedient.

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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