Thursday Treadmill Treats
I am learning patience
This is a tough lesson for me, I am a New Yorker, I am fast, I walk fast, I talk fast, come on, speed it up, let’s go, move it! That’s who we are and I think everything else should be at warp speed as well.
Unfortunately, the universe doesn’t agree with me and I keep having to learn these lessons.
I remember years ago I went to a card reader and she said I wasn’t going to leave my horrible marriage for another 4 years, I remember flipping out and screaming “4 years are you nuts? I can’t do 4 more years”
But things weren’t in place, I needed more time to learn more lessons and before I could blink, 4 years went by and I was gone into something that was incredible. Obviously it was the right time but I couldn’t see it.
I’ve been writing this blog for 4 years everyday, 5 days a week without fail. I am thinking okay I am ready, ready for the big time, let’s go but again the universe is saying “Yeah…not yet, soon but not yet”
But hey I ready, I put my blood, sweat and tears into this, I blog on 10 different sites, I am constantly promoting, I am doing all I can do…come on now….
Yes, I know writers write for years, painters paint their whole life and never become famous or become famous at the end of their lives but hello! I don’t want to wait that long!
Another area in my life I have issues with is my love life or lack there of.
I have always been in a serious relationship all of my life with just pockets of singleness, here and there.
Now I am going on 6 years alone, a few short term relationships here and there but nothing of true value, I am ready….hello are you listening? I am ready!
Again, I guess I am learning the lessons I need before I am ready for my next and final relationship. Like to value myself, to look out for the red flags or listen to God’s voice. Like it or not I have to learn patience.
This is not easy, I know so many of you will agree with me, when I say, your doing all your suppose to, your working hard, you have faith, you believe and yet still nothing…oh come on now!
Yesterday I got another sign and again it was… learn patience….yuggg!
I know that there are many lessons I need to learn before I can move on and these last few years they have been coming at me left and right, for someone who hated change, this has been something!
But I have been trying… maybe I needed to date lots of creeps to appreciate a good man when he comes. Maybe I needed to let go of the dead weight and people who really didn’t have my best interests in heart before I become famous, maybe I had to learn to deal with some haters now because many more will be coming for me when the whole world hears my words. Maybe I needed to learn to grateful for all I have now, to fully be grateful for the plenty that is coming in the future.
Yes, I am learning to have patience, I am learning to be fully present in the moment, to be grateful, to enjoy my singleness and my single friends and what we can do in this time.
I am blessed and I never forget that fact, I know that when I am ready, doors will open, things will change and that I will have an amazing testimony to give hope to others who are where I am today.
So today my friends, remember these are all lessons we are learning to make us grow, to get us ready for goodness, to give us the tools we will need in the future, we all just need to learn some patience.
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