Change is scary

Change is scary

This week I’ve talked about change and I have talked about choices, unexpected life changes that, ready or not happen in our life and we chose how we react to them.

We can either embrace the changes or we can shut off our hearts because we are afraid and keep going down the path we were on, making sure we don’t get hurt.

Yes, change is scary and fear often keeps us stuck in one place. We rather stay in a horrible situation than step out in the unknown which to us seems that much more scarier in our minds because we don’t know what’s out there.

But what if you never took a chance? What if fear kept you stuck, what would you have missed out on?
I for one can tell you I wouldn’t have had my own business, I stepped out on faith, just getting divorced to start a business from scratch. I didn’t know how I was going to pay my bills, how I was going to get clients, I wasn’t getting alimony and the measly child support barely put food on our table. How was I going to do this?

If I let fear rule me I would be in some stuffy office working for peanuts and hating it but I decided that since I was shaking up my whole life as it was, why not step out and do what I was passionate about. To take that chance and look six years later I have a great business I love, lots of clients and I have been able to take care of my girls and I.

But for me changes from the heart are even more scary, because I have a bad picker, I have chosen men who can’t or won’t step up. I have the need to please so bad that I give away my voice, my power and lose myself to another person.

So in this area of my life as with alot of us women out there and I imagine some men as well, this is the scariest part, to let go and let love in.

But life without love….well that’s not a life at all. We all need love, we are built to give love and receive love. It is like the air we breathe, it is necessary to live.

If you don’t step out and take a chance, what are you missing out on? What amazing things and people will you have missed? If you don’t take a chance, you will never know.

So today my friends, I leave you with this… remember that opportunities are lost in a blink of an eye, but regret can last a lifetime and I for one don’t ever want to regret anything in my life. I am in control of my life, I get to choose the outcome, I know change is scary but living a life full of what if’s is scarier.

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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The reason I am so positive

What makes me so positive?

Recently someone asked me this question and I had to laugh because it’s probably the most asked question I get asked.
It all starts with a mind set, growing up my grandmother lived with us, she was the most miserable, negative person you will ever meet. Nothing could make her happy and she was like this until the day she died.

Yes, she had a hard life and it didn’t turn out the way she thought it should, like most of us but she made everyone’s else’s life miserable as well because of it. I decided early on I was never going to be like her, I swore I wasn’t going to be mean and hate life like she did.

So even though I had just as bad of a life or probably worst, I still decided that I wasn’t going to let it effect my outlook on life.
Not to say it wasn’t hard at times, it was excruciating some days but I made myself be grateful for something, just waking up, waking up in a home, food to eat, later on for my girls, something, anything to focus on the good.

I chose to exercise every day, that changes who I am, it makes me feel stronger, it gives me energy and a clear head to be able to get through things.

I go to conferences, Dr.Wayne Dyer, Louise Hayes, Tony Robbins. I read motivational books and every morning on the way to the gym I watch inspirational videos, I listen to songs that give me a message.
I am constantly putting myself in that state of positivity, of gratefulness, of love, peace and joy.

I have a “sick faith” like my Bishop taught me, I found a church and a church family that keeps me going through the storms and grateful during the good times.

I have a belief that things will get better, I always think of the hard times and how I got through them and it gives me the courage to know I am a fighter and to know that I will get knocked down again but I will keep fighting and keep getting back up.

It’s a state of mind, it’s something you get to chose every day, yes I could have easily said “Look at my life, look at all I’ve been through, my mom’s cancer, my dad dying at 45, being raped, having to have an abortion and a suicide attempt all in the span of 6 months at the age of 15”

Yes, I had every right to be mad at the world when I lost 3 of my best friends, when my mom died, when I was in the depths of drug and alcohol addiction, when I was stuck in a verbally abuisve marriage for 24 years.

I should have gotten a hall pass on hatred and negativity, hell I earned that but I didn’t. I chose, there’s that word again, I chose to be positive, to look for that tiny silver lining.

Another thing I do is laugh at myself, I admit to being wrong, I am open to learn the lessons and actually look for the lessons in everything because I want to keep growing, keep changing. I am open, I step out of my box, I jump off that cliff even if it scares the hell out of me, I do it.
These are all simple, little tricks that can work for anyone.

So today my friends remember I am no different then you, yes, life pisses me off some days, I am not happy all the time, I get my pity party days, I cry…alot and yes, I even sometimes ask “Why me, God?”
But I don’t stay in that state, I have my pity party, I cry, I curse and the next day I put on my big girl panties and get with being positive again.

I am just like you, the only difdeence is I chose to get past that, I chose to focus on the good, I chose to do something about it and not bitch and moan about the bad. I chose to believe it will get better, to look at all the blessings I have and not all I’ve been through and say it always happens to me, this will never change.
I chose to praise even through the storms, not curse at the universe, I chose all of this and this my friend’s is what makes me and keeps me so positive.
This is your life, live it large, chose wisely.

“Be the change you want to see”

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You give up what you need, what what you think you want

What we give up for what we think we want

The Dalai Lama said “We sacrifice our health in order to make wealth, we sacrifice our wealth to get back our health”

We are so anxious of what will happen in the future that we don’t enjoy the present, the result being, we don’t live in the present or the future, we end up living feeling like we are never going to die and die having never truly lived.

We think we want money and when we kill ourselves to get it, we realize it doesn’t make us happy.
We think when…
When I lose weight…
When I get that dream job…
When I find a mate…
When I get that bigger house, nicer car….
When….
But when, when comes we are still not happy, still not fulfilled because we need to be happy in ourselves, in where we are now, right now, with whatever you have. I’ve seen the happiest people that have nothing and the richest without happiness, it all begins and ends with you.

Some people let fear stop them, the what if’s, the I can’ts, I raise my hand to this one, I let fear rule my life for 28 years, I was stuck because fear owned me.
But let me tell you something, the pain of regret far outweighs the pain of the risk.

What if Oprah believed all her haters? What if Steve Jobs had gotten a real job when they laughed at his ideas? What if the Rock didn’t overcome depression and go on to be a movie star? What if Ellen caved into all the bullies in her life? The people with the hardest past are the ones that took the greatest risk and got the greatest rewards.
You can not do that stuck in fear.

Lisa Nichols said you have to step out to that ledge, your brain will tell you don’t, what if? You see everyone else is living the life you want yet you are stuck on the edge. There are three things that can happen if you jump, you will land on something soft, you will crash land or you will fly beyond your imagination, either way you will get back up.
You will never know what the outcome will be if you stay stuck, even if you fail, there will be a lesson on how to do it better the next time. Edison failed 1,000 times before he got it right with the light bulb.When a reporter asked, “How did it feel to fail 1,000 times?” Edison replied, “I didn’t fail 1,000 times. The light bulb was an invention with 1,000 steps.”
How many of us would be willing to fail that many times?
He had passion, this was his purpose and he believed in himself even when everyone else didn’t.

What if we all followed our passion? Would we be better people? Better lovers? Better parents?
What if we all fulfilled the purpose that is put inside of us and not just go to a 9 to 5 job, hating our lifes, working for someone else who will replace us in a hot minute once we die? Why do we not give time to the ones that took us so long to find? Why do we not give time to our children who are desperately wanting our time? Why don’t we give time to our dreams, our purpose?

No, we are too busy running after the almighty dollar, keeping up with the Jones’s, trying to impress others with things and status and likes on social media, thinking this will make us happy.

So today my friends remember, this is your life, you get to fly, to chose happiness, to own your purpose.
We give up what we need for chasing a dream of what we think we want. Chose your life wisely, you only get one shot.

“Be the change you want to see”

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Your not by yourself

Your not by yourself

Yesterday I went to support my girlfriend, an amazing young women who created this documentary I am blessed to be in, while she was getting interviewed by our camera man/Pastor.

I went to his “church” a room in the African American center in Miami, but let me tell you, it didn’t matter how small his congregation was, it was how big his heart is and how passionate he is about God and this project.

Trinka spoke from her heart, about the abuse she suffered throughout her life, she was real and raw and brought us all to tears. This was the reason she wanted to make this documentary, she wanted to shine the light on this ugly, dark subject, she wanted others to speak up, to have a voice.

After the interview Pastor Leroy asked if anyone wanted him to pray for them, if they were dealing or had dealt with this. From this small group of like 20 people, 3 women stepped forward, even I was surprised.

He prayed over them, he held them, we cried with them and they let go of their past hurts and prayed to be whole again.

See we all think we are the only one’s carrying all the trauma in our past, we all think we are all alone, but this showed me that we all can related if we shine light, if we tell our truth.

Afterwards one young girl came over and said she had never spoken her truth before but because of Trinka and the rest of us she felt like she wasn’t alone. She wanted to get help, to let this go, to become whole again and she thanked us. We held her, we told her we know what she is going through, we told her this is why we have all come forward to help others heal.

This gave us confirmation that we needed to do this, to take our message around the country, around the world, to show others they are not alone. To show others how we healed, how we went from victims to victorious, how we overcame this and how far we have come.

For us our salvation was God and our faith, for others it may be whatever their higher power is, but whatever it may be we are here to support you, to be there and let you know you are not alone.

This is my purpose as I know it is for Trinka and Pastor Leroy as well. God placed this in our hearts to reach out, to touch others, to tell our stories. I am blessed to be part of this and be able to give, no matter how small, some peace to someone out there that thought they were alone, that they couldn’t talk about it, that it was burning a hole in their souls that they were filling with self hatred, depression, men, drugs and alcohol or anything else to try to cover up the pain they were feeling.

We want this to open up discussions in schools, in churches and at home, we need to talk about this.

So today my friends I am here humbled and filled with gratitude to be part of this, to be able to touch others with our story and my words. To be part of this group of amazing and brave people who have came forward to do the same thing.

Please share our videos, like our social media pages @thisisseries

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Unless we share, unless we speak our truth, this will still go on, this will still be kept underground, we need to be the light, we need to know we are not alone, you need to know your not alone, your not by yourself.

“Be the change you want to see”

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Tony Robbins and the #MeToo movement

Tony Robbins and #MeToo movement

Last week my cousin posted a video of Tony Robbins at his latest convention talking about the #MeToo movement.
Her quote to me was “So what do you got to say about your boy now”

She knows that I am one of Tony Robbins biggest fans and she wanted to know my opinion about this whole situation, because not only am I his biggest fan but also an advocate for rape and sexual abuse.

So here is my response on both sides of this subject and in case you’ve been living under a rock, this is what conspired this last week.

In the video,Tony Robbins argued with a woman at his workshop who stood and questioned his views of the #MeToo movement. In an exercise, he had her hold out her fist and pushed her across the room, to demonstrate, he said, that pushing back wouldn’t make her safer. Robbins referred to the Bible quote “Let he who is without sin cast the first stone,” saying that we’ve all done things we wish we hadn’t. Then he said the #MeToo movement made him “sad for women,” because many Hollywood executives he coaches are now refusing to hire attractive women believing the risk is too great.

And everyone was up in arms about what he said and rightfully so, as it didn’t seem like he had a grasped on the #MeToo movement at all.
Later this week he made an apology saying.

“I encouraged people to grow into the men and women they dream to be,” but that he still had much to learn.

“I teach that ‘life happens for you, not to you’ and what I’ve realized is that while I’ve dedicated my life to working with victims of abuse all over the world, I need to get connected to the brave women of #MeToo,” Robbins wrote.

Now here’s my two cents for all it’s worth,Tony Robbins has been self-help guru for more than four decades.
He teaches people how not to be a victim, how not to let anything in your past keep you from anything in your future. That it doesn’t matter what kind of background you came from or what took place in your life, you can overcome it.

That is what he’s all about, he himself also came from an abusive background with a bipolar mother, who drank and used to beat him and tell him he was nothing. He knows abusive, so I don’t think that he was putting down #MeToo movement per say, but he was just saying we all need to not look as ourselves as victims.

Now on the other side of the coin, I don’t think that #MeToo movement has anything to do with victimhood, I think it has to do with being able to have a voice. It has to do with being able to show other people, especially women, they are not alone in this situation.

I think it has to do with empowerment and nothing to do with being a victim, it’s about that we all have a voice and we need to use it .

I think we’ve all said things that have gotten misconstrued or had came out the wrong way, and I by no means think that he’s a woman basher or is not sympathetic to women. I have been to many of his conferences and events, he encourages and empowers people every day.

Maybe he just didn’t understand what we (Myself and #MeToo movement) are trying to say.

This is the struggle we face daily and this is one of the main reasons I agree to do this documentary on sexual abuse and rape called “This is series” because I think that this has been for so long, unspoken. It’s a tabu subject that happens to so many women and men, as I learned making this documentary.

We don’t talk about it enough, it’s off limits even still in this day and age and it needs to be spoken about, it needs a voice.
I think the #MeToo movement is that voice and projects like the one I’m on, will be able to show people out there that it’s okay to have a voice, to speak your truth. It’s not about being the victim but about being the survivor. To show others how to survive when you go through this and to show the steps you need to take to get there.

Tony Robbins in all of his seminars teaches you the steps how to let go of your past, how to forgive and move on. He teaches how to not be a victim but to be a survivor.

So to my cousin who I love dearly, I am on both sides of the fence here. I still believe in Tony Robbins and all he stands for but I am also a huge advocate of #MeToo movement and I truly think that this is a teaching moment for all of us. Teachimg us that we are too quick to judge, a teaching moment for Tony Robbins to think about what he says and how he says it.
A teaching moment to people out there who have been victims, to speak up and change your mindset and to the #MeToo movement, that we need to keep this going, the more talk, the more things will change. As I say in all of my blogs everyday…
“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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Listen to your heart, your head is stupid

Follow your heart, your head is stupid

Yesterday I wrote a blog about owning your differences, being true to your authentic self, today’s blog also goes along with listening to your authentic self.

We all think our head is the smart one, we are intelligent, we listen to our heads when it comes to all of our decisions. When we should be listening to our hearts, our hearts will never steer us wrong. Even when something seems good, but you have that feeling that says no, something doesn’t feel right, because it’s not and your heart knows that even if your head is showing you something different.

Tony Robbins said when you don’t think with your heart, you are dead and it’s true how many of us do the right thing? Do what our parents wanted us to do? What society thinks is right or should do? We follow the masses.

When we say we don’t want to go into the family business that generations have done before us, because we want to follow our hearts, our purpose, people think you are crazy because you won’t conform.

Following your heart is such a bad thing nowadays, it’s seems like your lazy, your not committed but it is what your suppose to be doing, just like owning your differences, this is who you were born to be, to do.

So why do so many people push against this? To keep the peace? To make others happy? This is your calling, this is your path, you need to listen to your intuition.

Ahhh….that other word… “intuition” that word that no one wants to talk about or listen to. Yes, we are all born with it, when we are children we didn’t need someone to tell us if someone was creepy, we automatically knew it from our intuition.

As we grew, our parents and society told us to poo poo those feelings and so we lost the ability to listen to them. But we all still have them, we have that feeling inside that we can’t shake, we know without knowing or seeing, we just feel it.

We need to listen to the red flags, we always hear that I saw red flags, you didn’t see them, you felt them but you didn’t listen, you kept going despite all the warning signs because your head said hey I don’t see anything, it’s not tangible, so go ahead.

While your heart was screaming, “Stop! Listen to me, run Forrest run!”
But because we think our heads are smarter then our hearts, we don’t listen and time and time again we learn that we should have listened to our hearts, to our intuition.

We need to listen to our hearts, we need to live our authentic life, we need to learn how to live our lives large, to be true to ourselves, it is only then that you are truly living your best life.

Forget what society says, what others say, this is your life, you get one shot this lifetime, use it to the best of your ability. Be what God or whatever your higher power called you to be, find your purpose, dance to the beat of the drummer in your soul, listen to your heart because your head is stupid.

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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Owning your diffences

Owning your differences

Yesterday while I was talking to a friend, she told me about the people that she worked with, they were our age yet still acted like they were in high school.

They gossiped and talked about people, they had their “clicks” and anyone who was not like them, they excluded and then talked about.
Now you would think that by this age, people would be over this already but here’s the thing, some people don’t learn and grow, some people are just stuck in a place that they felt they were “popular” Hey it worked for them back then…

But the thing about life is we are supposed to learn, to grow, to change. We are supposed to open our minds and our hearts to new things or new or different people. Why is it that some people are afraid of different, of people who don’t conform, people who aren’t afraid to dance to the beat of their own drummer?

I embrace people’s differences, at any given time my table looks like the United nations, Black, White, Spanish, Jewish, Christian, gay, straight, holy roller or thug I love them all.

This weekend while I was at this conference one of the morning rituals we did was go around to as many people we could and hold hands with them, introduce  yourself and then say “I am empowered by your….” and then tell them what you felt from them.
Most of my feed back was my smile and the fact that I really look at a person and saw their souls. Over and over I heard that from complete strangers.
Yes, I see people’s souls, yes, I was the person who brought new people in school to our lunch table, I reached out, it didn’t matter if you were a jock, a stoner, a geek, a misfit, I welcomed you because I saw through to your soul.

I don’t talk about people or put people down for their differences, I applaud their courage to be different in a world of conformists. It takes alot more courage to be different, then to conform.

The problem is it scares people, it makes people look inside themselves because maybe they aren’t being their true and authentic selves, maybe they are afraid of new things, still stuck. Maybe they are jealous that they can’t or won’t walk in their own light.
Whatever the reason, it doesn’t matter, you need to own your differences, your uniqueness, own what makes you, you.

Last year at my cousins wedding, they said it was formal, well their version of formal and ours were completely different. When we arrived in gowns and furs my girls said “Mom we are really extra” I looked at them and said pull your shoulders back, hold your head high and own your extraness!”

Yes, own your extraness, your whatever it is that God gave you to be different, own it. Don’t conform, don’t worry about the haters, don’t care what anyone one else thinks, does that effect anything in your life? Do they pay your bills? Does their opinion really mean anything in the big picture? No! Let it go, say a prayer for their pettiness, say a prayer that your glad your not like them and then move on.

So today my friends remember you are specially and wonderfully made, you are unique, different and one of a kind, own your extraness, own your differences, it is what this world needs.

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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When the student is ready, the teacher will appear

When the student is ready the teacher will appear

This is such a true saying, sometimes we are not ready to learn the lessons we need to, sometimes we are not open enough to receive. But when we are aligned up with the universe, with God, with whatever you want to call it, when we are ready, what we need will come.

I have been on this journey of change for the last 6 years, trying to at first find my voice again, then trying to answer the question we all come to “Is this all there is in life?”

From there I asked what is my purpose? What was I meant to do here on earth? When I realized my purpose, the next question was “Where am I suppose to go from here and then how do I get there?”

I have always said I have envisioned my life, free from my verbally abusive marriage, I envisioned my home, my business, all of this. At one point I started to envision motivional speaking, even though I was afraid of public speaking. I envisioned myself speaking in front of large audiences, I even envisioned myself on The Women of Faith tour.

Yes, I dream big, why not, who says you can’t? You are the only one that holds yourself back, dream big, then dream bigger!

This last weekend I was blessed with a weekend retreat with a dear friend to the AmondaRose Igoe, Empowered Speaker Event, which was a 3 day motivational speakers conference.

She was amazing, it was like a motivational speaker for dummies class. She walked you step by step on what to do, how to do it and what not to do. She broke it down with her laughter, her bigger than life personality and her warmth that made you feel like, yes, you can do this.

She also had us connect with each other, reach out, step out of our boxes which made it so much better as we made friends with people, we learned things about people we would have never guessed. That is what she did, she taught us to connect. We all have a story, we can all connect to our audience, we have to just be vulnerable, to be open, to be our authentic selves.

She made us think, gave us courage and taught us the easy steps to take this from a dream to a career. I realized that it wasn’t as hard as I thought, l have the ability to connect to people, I have the story, now I have the tools to do this, really do this.

I have been to many events, spent thousands of dollars, hearing speakers, taking classes and I have to tell you, she was by far was the best, this wasn’t a sales pitch, just trying to sell you the next big thing. No, this genuine women cared about teaching you all she knew and you felt it, you knew it.

I have come away from this knowing that yes, I am ready, this is what I want my next step to be.
I envisioned myself on stage like her, teaching others how to change their lives.

My writing will always be my first passion, but to actually be able to connect in person, that is my gift and this is the next obvious step.
So today my friends, this student was definitely ready for this teacher to appear.

My immense gratitude, to you AmondaRose, for being the teacher I needed when I needed it.

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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Being grateful all the time

Being grateful all the time

I write about this all the time, because this is such a huge thing in my life. I am so grateful for every day, for every second of my life, I live in the moment, I love big, I live large.

See I know it could be another way, hell it was for so many years and I remember those days, knowing I never want to go back there ever again.

This weekend I was blessed with a trip to Hutchington Island for a 3 day Motivational speaker conference with a dear friend. (Read more about that in tomorrow’s blog)
I got to meet some amazing people and learned how to do what I want to pursue as a full time career, better.

As I was driving home, I thought about the whole weekend, I thought about my dear friend who I went with, my new friends I had met and the endless possibilities that lie ahead of me on this next journey of my life and I started to cry.

See I am so grateful about where I am, where I am going and all the things in my life that it literally brings me to tears. It overwhelms me to think about how blessed I feel, to know in spite of my incredibly hard life I had, that I have overcame it all. I overcame the darkest, deepest hole, that I clawed my way out of. I overcame disappointment, loss and failure to be in a space of gratitude.
I overcame rape, drug and alcohol addiction, a verbally abuisve marriage, I overcame fear, self doubt and self hatred to be in this place of love.

I am constantly learning, constanly changing to become a better person, to help others see if I can do it, you can do it too.

I am here to speak my truth, to let whoever will listen, what my God has done for me. To give praise to him, to speak his name and know that without him all of this would have never been possible.

There is not a day that goes by that I don’t give him thanks as soon as I open my eyes, that I don’t give thanks even during the storms, even while life is coming at me hard and fast and I feel like I can’t breathe, I am still giving thanks, I am still filled with gratitude.

Yes, I cry, I cry all the time, tears of joy, tears of gratefulness, tears of forgiveness and love. I can remember crying tears of sorrow, of hatred, of unforgiveness, self hate, guilt and of being unfulfilled.

So much has changed in my life, because I’ve changed it, I stepped out, I decided enough was enough and I moved on.
I left all of these feelings in the past. Was it easy? Oh hell no, nothing worth anything is easy but ask me was it worth it and I will start crying as I tell you how worth all the pain was.

So today my friends, remember you can do anything you set your mind to, change your mindset to one of gratitude, change your life and you too will be feeling grateful all the time.

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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The blessing in disguise…. revealed**

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You never know until you try

You never know until you try…..

I always talk about trying new things and changing your life, it’s all up to you.
How do you know if you are going to like something or don’t like something until you try? Change is not a bad word, you just need to embrace it.

I was talking to a friend recently and she told me she worked 18 years for one company that was now closing. She was worried and she was making herself sick thinking about things that she had no idea would or would not happen.

We all worry about things we can’t change but let me ask you something if you worry does it change anything? No, it will make you lose sleep, it will make your hair fall out, it will make you run to the doctor thinking you are having a heart attack.

It will physically make you sick, believe me I know, I had all these symptoms and more and did it make any of my problems go away? No! I was more worried about how I was going to pay the doctors bills! So, now I have even more stress…that is when I realized why worry? That day I let it go and I let go of other things that stressed me out as well, like what if’s and should have.

We all have these things in our lives, things we stress about, things that we let stress us out.

Like what if I crossed the street and get hit by a bus? Should I never leave my house?

What if is a big one, what if this happens? What if that happens? What if you stop worrying about shit that might or might not happen. Why waste your life like that.

What if’s will rob you of your future, it will make you afraid of living life.
Should have… another life killer, you live with regrets and you live in the past, constanly thinking I should have done this or I should have done it that way,
second guessing yourself each step of the way.
These will all make you lose focus on the here and now.

See just like the famous saying in Forrest Gump “Life is life a box of chocolates, you never know what your going to get”
You don’t know until you try, you don’t know until you let go of fear, of what if’s and of should have’s.

So today my friends, let go of the fear, let go of the what if’s, let go of should haves, live for the moment, embrace change, look for the good in every opportunity. Learn your lessons from things and move on, live life large! Believe me, it’s all there and there are such better ways to live your life and you’ll never know until you try.

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

**Coming soon my latest book:
The blessing in disguise…. revealed**

***Now available***
My book The blessing in Disguise
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And on Amazon.com

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