I am proud of these young people standing up

I am proud of these young people standing up

I must admit I didn’t have much hope for this generation, the generation of me, of entitlement, of we are all winners because God forbid, you call anyone losers.

Yes, I thought we raised a generation of spoiled brats but I have to tell you I am shocked that after this Parkland school shooting, how so many young people are standing up and speaking out.

Maybe this generation will be a revival of the seventies when young people were passionate about things, enough to protest and have a voice.

Maybe their voices will be heard around the world, maybe with all their technology, they will ignite a fire that will spread, that will go viral and make everyone take notice and listen.

They are of voting age, they can change it all, change everything with their voices, with their actions. We need to take notice of them and we need to stand behind them and cheer them on.

It only takes one person, one Martin Luther King, one Rosa Parks, one person to change things, to stand up and say enough is enough, we are not going to put up with this anymore!

So yes, on March 24, I will be there with them protesting, I will be there with my voice, voices that these children who were gunned down didn’t have, didn’t get a chance to use.

I will be there with my teachers, who work so hard with little pay and now have to worry about if they will come home at night to their families. I will be there with the parents who are now afraid to send their children to school and worry if they will see them again.

I will be there for the parents, the friends and the families who lost a loved one to this senseless act of hatred and for this next generation of world leaders.

I urge all of you to step up, to support these young people, to make our government, make a much needed change. I urge you to encourage your own children to get involved as this world will one day be theirs.

I urge you to change government policy by voting for officials that are willing to change policy or to run for office yourself, to make a change.

So to these new leaders, I stand up and applaud you.

To Cameron Kasky who said “We can respect that. We’ve lost people. It’s important to mourn.Here’s a time to talk about gun control: March 24. My message for the people in office is: You’re either with us or against us. We are losing our lives while the adults are playing around.”

To a Douglas High School sophomore named Sarah Chadwick, who informed the President of the United States, via his favorite medium, in words that quickly went viral,
“I don’t want your condolences you fucking piece of shit, my friends and teachers were shot”

To senior Ryan Deitsch probing of senator Rubio
“We would like to know why do we have to be the ones to do this? Why do we have to speak out to the (state) Capitol? Why do we have to march on Washington, just to save innocent lives?” His voice rising with each question.

Or my favorite student Emma Gonzalez, who has been outspoken about her opposition to semiautomatic rifles, who recently asked Loesch what the NRA’s position was on bump stocks and making it more difficult to buy certain weapons.
She also spoke out in a press conference saying
“I found out today there’s a website shootingtracker.com. Nothing in the title suggests that it is exclusively tracking the USA’s shootings and yet does it need to address that? Because Australia had one mass shooting in 1999 in Port Arthur (and after the) massacre introduced gun safety, and it hasn’t had one since. Japan has never had a mass shooting. Canada has had three and the UK had one and they both introduced gun control and yet here we are, with websites dedicated to reporting these tragedies so that they can be formulated into statistics for your convenience” and her amazing chant “I call B.S!”

Yes, people this is our future and from where I stand it is looking bright. Thank you to all of you, for standing up, for being the voices that are no longer here, for being the voice of compassion and reason in a world so out of control, we are behind you and we are so proud of you!

“Be the change you want to see”

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I am not your friend, I am your parent

I am not your friend, I am your parent

Recently with the Parkland school shootings, we were talking about how part of these shootings happening around the country is partly parents fault. Parents are afraid to talk to their kids, they are afraid to check their kids rooms, to discipline their children. They are wanting to be their kids friends, not their parents. We are afraid to discipline our children, we put them in “time out” we talk to them, we have gotten soft and it shows.

There is a video going viral about a boy who is like 10 on the floor of a Wal-Mart cursing and kicking his mother as she just stands there not saying a word.

Hello!! Oh hell no, that wouldn’t have been my kids. I would have dragged them out by their hair, call the dam po po!
No, I was tough and when they needed an ass whipping, they got one.

Once I Dr. Phil my daughter by taking everything out of her room, the only thing I left was a mattress on the floor, I even took the door off the hinges.

Hello! This is my house I pay the bills, these are my rules, you don’t get to disrespect me or even have privacy here.
If that boys foster parents checked his room, they would have found the gun, if they checked his Facebook and social media accounts they would have seen his posts.

You don’t get to have privacy, I am your parent. I checked both girls rooms all the time and when I found bongs, drugs or whatever else, I confronted them, I punished them.
I took away phones, iPods and computer access.
I even had a control of the sites they could go on, on the computer. I am the parent, you are the child here, you will not tell me what to do.

My job, our job, as parents is to raise responsible, caring, compassionate, self sufficient adults, to go out and run the world one day. That is our only job as parents and we are screwing this up big time.

I don’t believe in beating your kids to death but I do believe in a whooping when they need it, I believe in punishment, in all privileges including phones and all electronics being taken away and I believe in respect, I am your elder you will have respect for me and others period! Period!

You will not think your privileged, that anything is owed to you, that your all a winner even if you lose, please we are raising a generation of pussys, sorry let’s be real.
We are not all winners, we lose, get over it, try harder next time, you will not start and stop a sport or anything else because it’s too hard, life is hard, get use to it!

No, I am tough on my girls because life will not coddle them, they need to be prepared. Recently I threw out my 21 year old after not being in school, quitting her job and not working for 5 months, while I was working 12 hours a day to pay all of her bills and mine. I gave a time frame to get a job or I was done.
January 2, true to my word I threw her out and stopped paying her bills. In 5 months you could have gotten any job, even at McDonald’s, I am not too proud, why should you be.

No, I know some of you will say this sounds harse but if she was in the real world they would have evicted her, again this is a life lesson for her.

I refuse to have a 30 year old, playing video games on my couch while I bust my ass, like so many parents I know do, no, not happening in this life time!

We need to take a long, hard look at our parenting skills, look at this generation and see what we are producing and then we need to make a change.

So today my friends remember it takes a village to raise a child, we all have our parts, the school’s, the teachers, our neighbors, the government and most importantly us as parents. We need to all work together, we need to step up and teach the next generation morals, respect, love and compassion…they are our future, don’t be afraid to stand up and say
“I am not your friend, I am your parent”

“Be the change you want to see”

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Your true colors

Your true colors

We all have true colors, we all have who we really are behind the mask we show to the world.
We all say, do as we say and not as we do, pretend we have it all together, that we are this type of person or that type of person, when are are not even close.

This is especially true for the dating world, where your putting out this image to try to find a partner. You said you weigh this or your pictures are way older than you say you are. You write you want a relationship when you are still broken or didn’t unpack from your last one.
You say your kind, yet you are rude to wait staff, you say you are generous, yet you never reach out to help anyone else out.
You say all kinds of things to build yourself up, trying desperately to catch a “fish”

Yet, when you finally meet someone, when you are in the getting to know you stage, your still holding on the facade, but you can only hold on to it for so long before it gets exhausting and you drop the mask.

It is then the true you emerges, the angry person, the hateful person, the hurt person who hurts people. Unfortunately for most of us, it is too late, we chose not to see the signs in the beginning or we try to only see the best in that person or maybe you let yourself go and fall in love with them and it’s too late.

Yes, once the mask is off, it’s on, they will let you know who they are, they will put you down, call you names, show that they are narcissistic or controlling. Maybe they are mean spirited or a wife beater or passive aggressive, whatever they truly are will come out for you to see.
And trust me it won’t be pretty and you will be shocked….or maybe not, because your intuition may have been telling you this all along.

For many of us who want to see the best in people, this really hurts us, we wanted them to be honest, to actually be who they said they were and we’re saddened that we are taken in yet again.
But I have been learning alot of lessons this year and one of them as I wrote about yesterday was don’t ignore the signs. There are always signs, you need to look for them, even the small ones will tell you something about a person because the small ones will eventually turn into the big ones.

Yes, it may taken me back that you could have spoken to me like that but to be honest I always knew you had it in you, you were just waiting for the right time to show who you truly are.

I am glad that it happened sooner than later when I was six feet in with my heart in my hand. I can walk away now saying “Dam I am getting better at this, I am not ignoring all the signs even if I ignored some of them”

I will never again wear a mask that I have wore for so many years in the past.
I am who I am warts and all.
I can’t pretend I am something I am not, I believe in fairy tales, I am brutally honest, I am quick to anger and quick to get over it. I love big, with my whole heart and know that life is too short not to jump in with both feet.

I will do anything for my friends and family but I will never be someone I am not, never again.
Yes, I will be fooled again, hurt again and maybe even have my heart broken yet again (Lord, I hope not) but even if I do, I will always be what you see is what you get, a in your face New Yorker who tells it like it is and never sugar coats shit.

So today my friends, remember you will eventuality see their true colors, you will know their real heart, you will see the flags much clearer and you too will be grateful that you listened, that you chose to walk away, that their true colors came out sooner than later.
Thank you for the lessons…for I am truly grateful for them as they are teaching me what I am willing to put up with and what says I’m outta here…
Bye Felicia…

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Dont ingnore the signs

Don’t ignore the signs

Funny recently I was making my yearly vision board with someone and they were being a smart ass when they cut out a quote that said “Don’t ignore the signs” and handed it to me. I laughed and proceeded to glue it on my vision board and he said “I was just joking”
I said “No, this was a sign…I know this was a sign from God”

Yes, I haven’t been good at seeing the signs and if I did see them, I chose to ignore them over and over again.
This was this year’s lesson, watch and when you see the signs, let it go.

Like recently when a ex came back into the picture, he told me he missed me, he wanted to try to work this out. I was in love with him, I was broken hearted over him for months afterwards and I knew that this was not going to end well again. There was signs all over, small messages like a meme on social media “Don’t go backwards” or a song singing don’t you remember the heartache?
A flashback of what I already went through with this man, that I conveniently forgotten.

It’s like when a person dies and even though through out their lives, they were an asshole, somehow when they die they become a saint, you forget all the bad they did. Yeah, that was me, I only seemed to remember all the good in our relationship, all the fun, the laughs, the sex…oh let’s be real here!

I conveniently forgot all the bad, the fact that he is an infuriating alpha man, that we fight about everything, that he thinks he is always right, that we still had issues with my male friends and with him just disappearing. All the things that broke us up in the first place, hello!! They were still there as well as these signs saying he didn’t change at all.
All these signs and yet I still went to meet him, to hear him out because I was hoping that maybe…just maybe…he changed, that maybe he was ready to take the right steps here.

But the signs kept coming…I should have saw them loud and clear but my heart was blinding my head once again.

If you want to change, you do the things you need to do, you put the work in, you go above and beyond to try to make it work, you put the other person’s feelings above your own, if that is what you truly want.

But here were the signs yet again and I kept ignoring them. This man was never going to change, he wasn’t here to step up, he saw me getting on with my life, he saw me with another man, he was lonely, I looked good, whatever the reason it wasn’t enough to step up, it was just enough to give me lip action and I fell for it…signs and all…

I was dating a man years ago and my girls kept saying he was “suz” today’s word for suspicious. I poo pooed it away thinking what do they know they are kids but they listened to their intuition and to the signs and they were right. The next man I dated they also said was “suz” and again they saw it and were right. Now, I realize that I also saw the signs with both of them but I kept going even when the signs said run Forrest run…

Other’s can see the signs you can’t, my girlfriends, my family, they all saw the signs, but still I didn’t listen to them. Now, I trust their intuitions and even my kids who knows what is real and who is true and pure, obviously better than I do. Sometimes we are too close to the situation to see all of it clearly, we are emotionally wrapped up, we have on our rose colored love glasses on, we want to see the best in that person.

Maybe your like me, and you truly loved this person and so wanted it to work out that you chose to ignore the signs again.

So today my friends remember, if your like me we can’t keep doubting our intuition, our signs that the universe is giving to us, we must see them right away, acknowledge them and realize that is our cue to run and don’t ignore the signs yet again.

“Be the change you want to see”

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How the shootings shook our church

How the shootings shook our church.

This week’s shootings shook us to the core and hit it too close to home for us.
We had so many members in our church, who’s  children went to that school, teachers that taught there and friends of friends who lost people in that school.

Yesterday we had many people that spoke out about how this has touched our community. We had a family who’s daughter was in the mist of the shooting, her parents waiting hours to know if she was alright. Teachers spoke of how their lives would never be the same and how they can’t handle to go back to work with these images in their heads. They spoke of how they lost teachers, friends and how their families have been torn apart by this tragedy.

Yesterday we all grieved together as a church, as a parent, as a community. We talked about how we have lost the image of the family, we lost what it looks like to be a family, how parents are afraid to discipline their children, how being “friends” with their kids are more important than them actually parenting them.

Hell, we even have to have a day to remind us to have dinner together, really? Is this what family values have come down to?

We spoke about how we need collaboration as a community, to change this. They say it takes a village to raise a child, we need to be that village.

Our village changed forever on February 14, it brought it to our front door…
It touched our community, our church, our lives forever.

We need to never forget how this changed us and take that to inspire us to make a change. We need to remember what the bible says that we need to “Train up a child the way he should go and they will never forgot the training”

We need to teach our children, love and compassion, we need to stop teaching our children rasicm and hate, we need to teach them the word of God.

God is given us a responsibility to train them to grow up a certain way, to believe in his ways and lately we have not been doing a good job.

You have a choice to invest in your children, yes, we are all working to make a better life for our children, but sometimes that is not beneficial to them, we are not involved in what they’re doing, who they’re hanging out with and what’s going on with their feelings because we are too busy, we need to remember that our children always come first.

We must not lose the family grip, the change starts at home.
We need to stop being friends with our kids, we must be the parents.

The church needs to step up and create change in the church’s. They need to take ownership as well, they must show the world that we have love for everyone, that they are not segregated in they’re thinking as well.
Something was missing in that young man’s life, maybe it was God, or a lack of belonging to a community, maybe it was hatred, maybe it was rasicm, maybe he didn’t have a back ground fill of God and the church.

And it’s going to take the government to make a change. We need to change these gun laws, we need to stand up, run for office, speak up, make a change.

Family, church and government all needs to change in order for this to stop.
Our job is to create change, to raise our children as better people, to make sure we leave this earth a better place than it was when we came in.

So today my friends remember, in order to do this we must all come together to make the change, so that we won’t ever have to be sitting in a Sunday morning sermon grieving about how a shooting shook our church.

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Gun control

Gun control

This is yet again a huge controversial topic this week, in the days after the Parkland school shootings.
I remember I wrote about this subject after the Orlando shooting and the Vegas massacre as well and here I am again, unfortunately writing about this same subject.
There are people coming out fighting from both sides, with both sides having valid points.

There are the freedom of rights people saying we have a constitutional right to bear arms, that guns don’t kill people, people kill people.

Then there is the other side that says look how many shootings we have, how many people will have to die before we do something about it, that more criminals and crazy people have guns than normal average people.

Both are valid points, both sides are passionate about their stand, so much so there have been protests almost every day since this happened.

If you read my blog you know I am strong believer in whatever you believe in, whatever gets you through your day, this is America, we get to choose. We live here because of that reason, we have freedoms to do or not do as we please, say or not say what we want. This is why people are still dying to get here, in spit of all the other things that might not be so great in this country, we still have this going for us.

So, do I have an opinion on this, nah…you think? Yup, and you know I tell it like it is, so here’s my take on all of this.

I grew up in upstate New York, I learned to shoot a gun at 13, we went target practicing all the time, I had lots of friends, including my high school sweetheart, that hunted every season,
I even tried it but I couldn’t kill Bambi, I just didn’t have it in me.

The hunters I knew ate everything they shot, this wasn’t about just killing for killing sake, some of these people actually feed their families all year with these kills.

I come from a family of military men, who all had guns, who were proud to serve this amazing country. A lot of my family members are police officers, they obviously have and use guns.

I grew up around this mentality of the freedom to bear arms. I have shot all kinds of guns, hand guns, shot guns, semi automatic guns, I am not afraid as we always practiced gun safety, this was serious for these people.

This having and owning a gun was serious business and there was no playing around, they knew what these weapons could do and they always were responsible.

I use to own a gun while I was married, we taught our girls to shoot and taught them gun safety as well. So am I for freedom to bear arms? Absolutely, but here comes the but… sorry, other freedom to bear arms people, there is a but here.

I don’t believe anyone needs or should be able to buy a rifle that can kill 20, 50 or 100 people in seconds, sorry that is not what the constitution wrote about. Hello! They had no semi automatic weapons back then, let’s get real here.

There should be more intense background checks, there should be restrictions for mentally ill people about getting guns, more wait times in buying them, whats your frigging rush?
If you are a law obeying citizen, you’ll wait, you will be okay with the paperwork, the background check. I am okay with this, I want this, in fact.

We should not be allowed to sell these type of guns anymore and anyone who has these guns should get mandatory prison sentences. There should be tougher penalties for people selling these guns on the black market, with mandatory prison sentences as well.

The Orlando shooter asked for specific kind of guns, he wanted bulk ammo, the gun store called the FBI and still nothing.
This 19 year old walked in and bought this rifle off the shelf.
People…we are in war right on our own land, we need to be careful, we need to make sure senseless killings like these don’t happen again. If the killer had a regular gun, not a semi automatic how many lives would have been spared?

I know this is going to cause a lot of heat for my opinion but hey I tell it the way I see it, like it or not.

I am for the freedom to bear arms but responsibly, no one needs a gun that sets off 200 rounds in seconds, sorry, no one except our military.

So today my friends, we all need to keep our Constitutional rights but we need to be responsible, we need to come together, we need to have more compassion for others feelings, others ideas.

We need to learn and practice tolerance for each other, no matter what our beliefs are. We need to keep our children safe, our families alive, we need to take a stand against these senseless killings we are seeing more and more.
Maybe then we wont be having this conversation about the gun control.

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A mass murder in my backyard

A mass murder in my backyard

It breaks my heart to yet again have to write another story about another mass murder in our country, this time it’s even closer to home, as it was right in my own backyard.

At least 17 people were killed when a teen opened fire at a high school in Parkland, Florida.

Fourteen others were wounded, five of whom are suffering life-threatening injuries.

Authorities identified the shooter as 19-year-old Nikolas Cruz, who concealed himself in the crowd while fleeing Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School. He was arrested in nearby Coral Springs.

They say he was expelled from the school and went back for some type of revenge. Whatever the reason so many of these families lives have been changed forever because of this one boys action, as has many other families across this nation who has also been affected by violent gun murders.

It touches my life, as so many of my friends children go to this school, while we wait to see if any of them were part of this rampage. Everyone will be effected by this, as its a small community and everyone knows everyone, so it will touch us all in one way or another.

I can’t seem to wrap my head around this, our children should be safe in school, they spend most of their time there, away from us, we expect the schools to take care of them.

But yet again we’re worried about building a billion-dollar wall to keep out the Mexicans, when was the last time a Mexican did a mass murder in our country? When will this country stop saying our prayers are with you, in one mass murder after another and start saying we need change?

When will we stop selling guns that kill a hundred people in 2 seconds and have tougher gun laws? When will we get our heads out of our asses and realize that most of the mass murder in this country comes from our own, it doesn’t come from Muslims, it doesn’t come from Mexicans, it doesn’t come from immigrants from other counties, it comes from our own hometown.

When will we change those laws to make it tougher, to get guns, more intense background checks and get tougher on black market guns sales?
We’re so fast to point the fingers at others when we don’t see that this comes from us, this makes me so mad.

Why don’t we use that money to make our school safer? To install police and metal detectors? Why are we still paying congressman who line their pockets with gun lobbyist money more raises when our children are dying every day?

There have been 300 school shootings since 2013, 300 shootings!!! What is wrong with this picture? What is wrong with this country?

I don’t want to hear our prayers are with you, I want to hear we are going to change our laws, we are going to spend money on the things that keep our children safe, not to keep out people who come here to do the jobs we would never do! Get real people, this is what terrorist looks like, a white kid, an extremist, a person that lives in your backyard.

A recent survey said that there were 201 terrorist incidents on U.S. soil from January 2008 to the end of 2016. The database shows 115 cases by right-wing extremists ― from white supremacists to militias to “sovereign citizens” ― compared to 63 cases by Islamist extremists.

So who are we trying to keep out? They live here, get real about this, stand up, let your voices be heard, we will not tolerate this again.
Don’t say your prayers are with us when your hands are in the pockets of the government and the gun lobbyist, demand a change.

Today my heart is heavy yet again, I am afraid for our children and what is happening to this country and I will continue to be a voice for those who no longer have one.

Not only will I be praying for the families, I will be praying for our country and I will keep speaking out for change.
Because words without change mean nothing…”Be the change you want to see”

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The same miatakes

The same mistakes

We have all ask ourselves why do we keep doing the same dumb mistakes over and over? Why do we keep setting ourselves up for heart brake? Why do we not value ourselves enough to say no, to say you will not treat me like that anymore, I deserve better, you are not enough for what I have to offer.

Is it that we are such  believers in love, in happily ever after that we are willing to settle for less than?
Sometimes it makes me cry when I see couples or watch tv shows with people who are in love because I think, will I ever have that?

I know it feels like we have been deprived of love for so long that our heart aches for that kind of love. So much so, that we keep allowing men or women into our lives that have nothing to offer just so we can have someone.

Maybe for me it was because for so many years I heard I was nothing, that no one else would want me? Was it because I was so beaten down, that I had given up on finding someone worthy? Is it, that deep down I am still believing his words, that I am not worthy.

Or maybe it was because of my grandmother, who withheld love from me whenever I did something she redeemed “bad” as a young child of 5 or 6.
I would try to do anything to make her love me again, I did nothing wrong but yet I would beg for her forgiveness. Was it this sick pattern of trying to win someone’s love that brought me to this place?
This is what I learned, that even when someone mistreats you, you keep trying to make it work, to make them love you.

I don’t know what the answers are, why I the way I am and maybe you don’t know the answers either but we know it’s not working, we know it never worked and that no matter what, we need to change. Otherwise it will continue to perpetuate this abuisve cycle we have been living in.

Yes, this is hard to admit, I get it, but not only am I admitting this, I am putting this out there for the world to see, so if I can do this, you can too.

In order to change like I have learned in the program, you first have to admit your mistakes, you have to own what you did, you have to ask for forgiveness and you have to relearn another way to deal with your issues to get into and stay in a new life.

So here I am….open, honest, raw, broken, beatened and bleeding, to try to change this about myself, to help others see themselves in me and I will not be shamed or embarrassed because we have all made these mistakes.

We have to be willing to dig deep, to find out where these patterns come from and then to figure out how to change them in order to grow and change. In order to be better, to be healthier, in order to find what we truly deserve and not just settle for the same hurt and pain we are conditioned to.

So today my friends remember you are worthy, you deserve to be treated with respect, by someone who loves you for you, flaws and all. Someone who will not try to change you, belittle you or hurt you. But first we must all start at forgiving ourselves for our past mistakes, learning the lessons we need to learn and then making the changes to move on and to not make the same mistakes we done in the past.

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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Prevailing power of prayer

Prevailing power of Prayer

The problem today is that people dont pray, we don’t ask Gods advise on all aspects of our life’s, we only pray for things, we pray when we need help, but the rest of the time we think I got this, we think we don’t need to pray on all the other areas of our life.

You need to delvop prayer not only in your finances, in your home life, you need to delvop in your faith walk with God.
Never underestimate the power of prayer!

It makes you totally dependant on God, everyday you should get God involved in your daily decisions, when your not winning,.it’s because your not praying.
You have to pray the word of God but first you need to know the word of God.

Pray God will give you wisdom, to hold your tongue, to give you strength, even when you don’t know what to say and what to do, it is then you need to pray. It doesn’t matter that you don’t know what to say, God knows your heart, talk to him, like you would talk to your friends, in your car, at home, when you wake up or go to sleep. See I pray to him all day, I give thanks when I wake up, I give him thanks when I am driving home from the gym watching the sunrise, I give thanks while I am driving my car and a song comes on that reminds me if where I once I was and how far I have come with God’s grace and mercy.
I am in a state of gratefulness all the time, as I am so blessed to have him to turn to.
I know when I don’t have the answer to life challenges, that’s when I need to pray.

Say to God “I need your help, I need your wisdom” Whenever your confronted with a problem, that is when you need to pray.
Your stressed, you talk about it, you magnify the problem, some of you are talking about your problems to more people more than your talking to God.

You can get from God anything you ask for, when he comes first, when your in the will of God, you won’t worry.
I no longer stress, I no longer worry, I pray and I let God worry.
Even through these recent storms, money problems, problems with my daughter, car problems, computer issues, my identity stolen, issues with my ex husband, ex’s coming out of the woodwork, trying to slip me up, yet again. All I do is pray and let God worry.

Pray about your job, pray about your business, pray about your relationships, pray about a deal, pray about your money, pray about everything… then listen to God’s words.

Can you handle the frustration in your life? You can try to do this on your own or you can chose to pray and see the amazing things that God can and will do.

Do you feel anxious? Do you feel stressed? Do you feel like you can’t deal? Can’t breath?
Find happiness in God, delight yourself in God, learn to take pleasure in God, pray and have a gentle spirit…. you need to be gracious not selfish, not self centered. You need compassion, a kind heart, you need to love one another, no matter our differences, our sexual preferences, our religious beliefs or our political stands, we need to show love to one another.

See, your faith is weaken everytime you don’t pray.
I loved the story of the man who God told to go to the river to get healed,
he was at the right place, at the right time, but with the wrong attitude, for 38 years, he kept missing his God miracle because of his attitude, yet he was so close.
You determine how quick your miracle will happen by how quick you respond to God’s word.

There are 5 types of prayers you need to pray:

5 types of prayer

1- If anyone amongst you are in trouble…pray.
2- Pray the prayer for the sick.
3- Pray the prayer of faith.
4- Pray the prayer of confession.
5- Pray the prayer of righteousness.

When you pray and God speaks to you, you can take that to the bank, don’t think just because you hear a no that will be it, but if you pray and if you have faith, God will turn your no’s into a yes.

I remember when I started this business, I tried to get with Groupon and Living Social, they turned me down, time and time again and so I prayed, I sowed a seed and I put a demand on it. I told God if this was what he wanted me to do let one of them call me and accept me and the next day after months of hearing no, they said yes!

Know who’s you are, you are the child of the most high God, start praying and stop talking, listen, pray, have faith, work the word, pray and see things change.
Prayer will Prevail in your life, if you start praying today.

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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Lost in my thoughts

Lost in my thoughts

As I sit here watching the sun go down over the horizon, listening to the waves and the birds as they fly by, my toes in the sand and the wind in my hair, I feel like I am connected to the universe.
I feel like I am one with God and that all my problems are washed away with the waves.
I can breathe, I am whole and the only thing I am thinking of is how grateful I am to be alive.

I am grateful I am healthy enough to walk on this beach, to hear the birds, to see the sunset, to feel peace because I know there could be another way, there was another way for so many years.

I know what it feels like to feel hopeless, to hit rock bottom and think you will never see the sun again.
I know what stress, worry and anguish feels like. Waking up so many mornings wishing I didn’t wake up, not liking myself or my life.

See I know where I’ve came from, so being in this place now, I appreciate it all, every little thing, I live in the moment, I enjoy life and live it large.

Yes, I take every opportunity to travel, to spend time with loved ones, to laugh often. I no longer let the stress of life consume me, yes, I still feel overwhelmed at times, I am human, but I can switch it off, I can come here and know what’s really important in my life.

To give thanks to God for all he’s done and continues to do in my life. To apologize and forgive others, to tell people I love them, to lift up others, to help a friend in need, to see the good in others even when it is hard to find.

I am a changed person, I see life in a whole new perspective, like a person who died and came back to life, I now know how precious life is, how everything can change in a moment and it can all be over.

No matter how bad my problems seem, how much the storms are coming at, I know I will be okay.
I am that positive that tomorrow will bring a new day, that it will be another chance to change my life.

So today my friends remember, life is too short to let shit get to you, there is always going to stress, storms, disappointments and heart aches but it’s how you deal with them that will ultimately affect your life.

“Be the change you want to see”

“And just when the caterpillar thought his life over…he turned into a beautiful butterfly”

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